Nervosa

SUNDAY!!!! But I really don't know what to write.

Right now my heart is beating fast, Im feeling nervous...for some reasons...
I dont know what to do now, Im going to panic! Heart attack!!! WAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

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Better continue my nap, I dont think I can sleep well from now onwards...I've never been this nervous......

Damson Cursed Part II

I wasn't goin to UTAR at the moment...atleast I don't think I wanted to attend class for today....I wished to get myself clear....out of any troubles, which seems troubling because I can't even stop thinking bout that accident even a second...

The big mistake is really wearing me down...Im totally busted I think...unless...there is a hope that Im not convicted....or what so ever...hope everything is fine and back to normal...

One thing I've learn in this accident....NEVER NEGOTIATE WITH THE DRUNKENS....they are totally morron when they got those alcohol stucked up into their brains and asses....what ever....they just redundantly, repeatingly, continuously, talking bout the samething...I wonder how it feels like when you are drunked?? CRAZY MORRON!!

Sorry for getting rude here, I can't anyway to release my stress other than to "shout" literally into this blog....

I hope everything will be fine...continue my runaway from the reality before everything has and end to it.........



"Although running away from the problem isn't a good choice, sometimes people just can't help it but to hide from the reality..."

Damson Cursed Part I

It is really a bad day for me, or shall I say I never had any good days since concious...

Besides the upcomming results of the "erection" (by Shack), around 1.30a.m. Damson is driving down from Genting back to Kuala Lumpur and then BANG!!!!! The impact stronger than the big bang and the feeling was tremendously exciting...I've been banged from the back and HE WAS ACUSING ME THAT WAS MY FAULT! What the heck was it?? Damned life sucks all the time...

Fortunate enough, Damson's Kembara was some how stronger than that wicked Proton Wira, unfortunate enough Damson had made a bad decision after the accident. After long educated and experience how to handle a bad situation like this and I still made really bad mistakes when it happens on me. I think Im still not mature enough to handle such big problems, how can I get myself INTO such a trouble for my parents???? I really don't understand some how that is it really my fault to be like this...Im starting to confuse everything all together, stucked up very very very roughly.....

Its great to know Opposition had most of the big states and even out the power BN had all these years, sad to know, when come to my concious I had made a bad decision for my day. Sometimes, you really can't escape from the wrath of luck no matter its good or bad. I will be grounded I guess, so for if my parents wont ground me I would ground myself anyway. There is always consequences for decisions made.....

AND MY COMPUTER GOT INFECTED BY SOME KIND OF STUPID SPAM! ITS NOT A VIRUS, BUT I AFRAID IT WAS A WORM! LETS HOPE NOT!!!!!!!!

Felt weak, felt tired, felt hopeless at the moment but while typing there is an unfammiliar and strange feeling of relief...I think Im going crazy with myself...thats all for now....updating every moment when I can....ja na~



"Sometimes, you just can't avoid being caught in the middle to trouble and yet, you still have to accept that its your life..."

Damson Chronicles

Phewwwwww~~~~~

How long have it been? Few months already since I've blogged, and I think most of the regulars here ain't thinking I will be back no more....hahahahaha crapping crapping....

Its really hard to stuck 3 months stories into a single piece of blog, so shall I make it short? Ya I think I should. For the pass few months I've been missing in my blog, today shall be the free day I re-blog again and yet my mind was set blinded from everything...maybe its only my enthusiasm or what ever. Lifes been really crazy and wild out there, sometimes when you think that you are gaining, everything might as well just get back fired which just really hurting.

Once, most trusted and reliable companions might as well just bite you back later. Once I thought the company was good, it turns out we can't just judge anything by their covers. Having lots of problems around me and I think its not going to end. The best thing of all, Im always gaining experiences, always enjoy everything around, always felt hope and learn to give chances as well as grabbing them hahahaha.....

Well, Damson is just merely crapping here right now. I was trying to write something decent but I really can't think of something nice to write about....SO I think this shall be it for today, maybe next time I can have something better....ADIOS~!


"Life is not just what we are experiencing right now. The longer you live, the more your gain and understands the difficults and joy you can find in it. Be strong and have faith with your own living way."

Stealing free time...

Fuyah!! Long has passed and its already one month since working. Missed out alot of fun with friends but still, Im still as happy as ever as long as everyone is still here!

Phew, finally got sometime to have a break. Guess what, I've ben promoted to ATM (Assistant Team Manager)......this is surely a hard job...Im going to lose alot this month I guess. Spending time to train my teammates is sure a hard job....Oh no not really hahahaha, they are really good at it for a first timer, I guess they will be rich in a week or two hahahaha....

Well, since Im just stealing some free time I have from work to blog this so this shouldn't be a long one.....Just to say that Im really having fun doing this job and I never had such an enjoyable job before!!!! I love this job and I like everyone that is working together, I've learned alot that I couldn't learn in school....Aloha and Adios!!!!



"A problem is not a problem until you think it is a problem, if you don't solve the poblem then the problem will definately solve you. As a power of combine, you can beat through everything that is on your way, so don't lose anyone that is around you!"

Day off

Today is supposed to be a day off for me...but since me and all my partners (4 of them) were doing our practical on field training last week (Friday, Saturday, Sunday) so our boss asked to go back to office today and do a review for this 3 days sales (which will be later...now is only 11.45am)...well...Im doing good so far....although the day is not doing that well...(it keeps raining when Im on work...which means disturb and interuption of work since our booth is at the main entrance of Cineleisure)

Well, apparently my boss happen to be fullfilling his promise on us although we are not hitting the target,(he promised on giving us a free big chicken as the treat of if we did a 20 sales on that particular day .....but so unlucky we are...we only get 19....) thanks boss!!!! Today the 4 hour review and proposing is really pressuring....stressful as it is...our boss actually(I just knew it today...=.=) try to and forcing us to do something that is not supposed to be done on our level...which means he is pressuring us to do something more.....wao...I understand...because I've gone through that...and it really is pressuring...but hey...no pain no gain right?? Haha!!

Well, this is the worst day off that I've ever had....my boss is pressuring us (AGAIN!!) by asking us to do something that we didn't even expected that will come so fast.....tomorrow...we will be going to server the SME (small medium entreprise if not mistaken)....serving bosses and business man sure is quite and really harder than serving customer that went for shopping right?...YA right...I think so...Tomorrow will surely be a deadly day to pass.......Im still thinking what should I do.....

OH ya.....before I end, just to say...since Im doing quite ok with my work so IF anyone interested in joining in can gimme a call if you wish to pressure yourself hahahaha....and the meal treat I think has no problem already....cause I think at the end of the month I will sure be earning more than enough for just a meal (if I keep the work going on as well as possible and hardworking ofcourse) so be anticipating ya!!!! Ciaoz!!!! Waiting for another dying day!!!!



"Sometimes human just can't think possitively. If you have the time to think on something that is unneccessary why not use your time wisely? If you have the time to HATE someone, why don't use the time to concentrate more on someone that you love???"

Day of?? Maxis?? Training?? Blogging?? DEAD...

Phew!, finally Thursday is here... what a long week...never had a holiday is like what I've been going through now....well...I found a job on last Thursday, thank god I found one, the training is on Monday...thats harsh...

Monday- Training, (mood = anticipating)
Well, this is the 1st day of training. I woke up early as usual and get ready to go for KLCC for my 1st day of training. I never expected what is waiting for me there...a total nightmare....er..daymare..or what ever....I reached KLCC rather early together with my friends and waiting for my team leader and my boss. After that we've met some other guys as well(future teammates)Boss started the training by explaining about Maxis (the company im working for is one of the exclusive partner of Maxis) and what we should know to earn our own money...haha...sounds funny?...its not at all...then we head on with the product knowledges...whats comming next is really killing me....real time on field training...we need to get to change to uniforms and then head on to promo and try to close cases....I've never expected this to happen...I never dreamed that promoting this would be that hard....I failed the training for today...I did'nt get any business at all..no cases..."eat the air"...atleast I've met some new friends today...(I've learn one thing though...do not be harsh on promoters...)

Tuesday- Training day two, (mood = kill me)
Today is a lil bit special...we don't have to be at KLCC any more...phew, what a relief...we get to learn another product's knowledges...then something stupid happened...our boss require us to propose a way to hit our sales target..swt...god help me again please...I've never done any proposal before...how am I gonna get through this??After some talking and teaching...we've been send back to KLCC (not again!!!) for another product's training....well...unfortunately...there is insufficient uniform for all of us...so a new comers get the chance to promo for the day...and to our suprise...he is good at it!! But...still no case closed for the day..haha...unlucky...

Wednesday- Training day three, (mood = KILL ME FAST!!!)
Hell, today is the day to submit the proposal....dead...Im totally dead...reach there as early as ever...well...after some teaching for the final product...we've finally get to propose our proposal...and...the answer is...everyone is dead...with a misconception of doing the proposal...everyone did it in a wrong way...Now I know why we need to do the proposal...its because we (full-timer) will later on need to propose the products and ways to make sales for the company...(Im goin to be dead at this...)and then we get a 20 minutes chances to think for our new proposal...and taada....we've been assign to jobs following our proposal...(Im proposing to do a booth at steven's corner in Setapak...)A 3 days operation and I can't wait to die...kill me pls....

Thursday- day off, (mood = sleepy)
Phew, day off...not a bad idea eh?? Gosh...not at all...I can't relax....why?...because there will be a electricity shut down for day time...what the heck!!! Gotta find something to do or somewhere to go with my friends as soon as possible since the electricity is still on!!!! Finally went to KLCC (what??? again???) with 2 of my friends because one of them needs to buy a set of formal wear for his job...Not bad....went to KLCC then back to Jaya Jusco again to hunt for cheaper formal wear...out of my expectation....I've met alot of people here that I've long lost connected...
Matheena - friends last time working at Jaya Jusco...didn't have time to chat with her though
lost connection for sometime...
Wei Chee - friends since foundation sem 1...for some of you who don't know she is Isaac's girl friend...she seems like working at JJ for now...long time never met her since degree...lost connection...
Yew Choong - My class rep....didn't expect to meet him here at Desa...crazy...but at least he said hello to me....not like someone...
Joey - The someone....girlfriend of YC....I called her name more than 10 times and she didn't even look at me...and when I really passed by her...she looked...but didnt even said HELLO...swt...She is gonna be dead when we are back to UTAR...
Anthony - wow...knew him since kindergarden....Msia champion of Yu Gi Oh card game and appointed by Msia to go for competition at USA....long lost connection too...
Cherry - I miss her most....primary classmates....long long long long time didn't met her already...seems like she's gone prettier!!! swt...what am I talking??.. Yikes..........

Thats all for now....bloggin soon....Im goin to be dead....soon....very soon....see ya'll in Hell...




"Don't ask what others can do, ask what you can do for others. Don't ask about god and ghost while you don't even understand human, dont ask bout the dead while you don't understand the living" - Confucious