Just another crap...

Another 27th June like all the 18 years I’ve lived up to. But this year its different from all the previous, its my “bro” KY’s birthday and I had planned a birthday celebration for him. Up to that day only I know that, I’m a total failure. I failed to convince everyone to attend the birthday celebration and it had turn out to be a lame one. And then I failed to send JS and Kelv home. I really failed my management eh...

Here are the details of that day

Morning, I woke up unwillingly (just skip this part cause this is what I usually did, wake up from my sleep unwillingly) and then brush up and head to my 1st class which was 8.30am in the morning. I manage to run through the class while sms-ing Kelv and Chee Ken to make sure about the planning later on. Yeah, I remembered, today was KY’s birthday and I’m the one who did the POLC of the celebration. My class ends at 10am and hence I went to the cafeteria in SC block to pass my time. I had a nice chat with JC which was having her breakfast and was waiting for her class to start, and John. J too which was having his break at the moment. Later that, (about 5-10 minutes later) I received the sms from Chee Ken and he found me at the café and OS too were there and we made sure that who was following to PJ as earlier I was told by Kelv that he will be heading to SP for KY’s present. 10.30am I went to SA block’s lobby to wait for everyone. Unwillingly OS called and found me sitting at the corner of the lobby and CK then arrived 3 minutes later. We had a brief chat and OS decided that she will not head to PJ after all since Soo Li and Gin’s gang were busy and might not attend the celebration (the excuse she gave was that she had taekwondo lesson the day before and she was tired…swt…).

At last, knowing that most of the people here in Setapak aren’t going to the celebration, which made me feel really down, I decided to head to PJ and SP with Kelv. Kelv reached the lobby at about 11.30am which was the time we agreed to meet each other there. Then we head to the LRT station by taxi and there goes our journey to PJ. In the LRT, we were wondering where to go after SP because I heard from Kelv that Cyn and HT were really busy and its only 12.30pm that we will be reaching Asia Jaya. No worries, we reached AJ by 12.30pm just like what I had estimated. Well, a bad news when I saw Cyn’s kancil, there’s already 4 people in the car and how can it survived having 6 passengers in it and drove all along the high way (till now I still don’t understand…swt). We actually went to SP, HT and JS having their big time (leg cramps) and straight away head off to the pet central. Cyn had fun with some hamster while me and Kelv having a hard time choosing which cage to buy for KY and where to get the hamster.

Finally without many choices in the shop (as all the cages was quite expensive). Kelv and Cyn decided to head to other pet shops to have a look, so we decided to just buy a ball (which is a toy for hamster to roll around by running inside the ball). We found a hamster that’s doing backstroke and it looks quite funny. HT insisted to buy it but we decided not to because it looks infected as there’s a red spot at the back of its head. Then we saw a very active and cute hamster again and decided this time we will want this (but we actually got it mixed up I think because once the people from the shop opens the small room of the hamster they suddenly all got excited and jumping around). After getting the hamster and leave it inside the ball, we decided to head to KFC for lunch (or else Cyn will make sure she had enough from the hamster we just bought). After the lunch, we headed to Cyn’s little kancil again and this time we all felt quite uneasy but energetic because of the little hamster running around in the ball. A mere 10minutes later Kelv started to notice something weird on the hamster. Its having a hard time I think because I saw its very humid in the ball and the hamster was sweating and trying to find air gap so that it can breath.

10 minutes later the hamster started to stiffen and it’s an emergency cause we found that it actually fainted and flipped over together with the ball as we rolled it over to make sure that it moves. Trying to save it, we decided to let it out from the ball awhile to grasp some air. Lucky enough it came back to live and we actually arrived to the destination. Cyn, who had a hard time understanding the way pointed by Kelv and found a parking and park the car abruptly. Rushing to the pet shop, which was quite big, Kelv lead me to the hamster corner which it sells everything that a hamster needs, cages, beddings, foods, hamsters, and et cetra. After deciding the cage which was quite small, I think, I grabbed the food and bedding for the hamster and then we head to the counter so that our cute little hamster there wont have to suffocate again in that small rolling ball. Heading back to PJ after that and Kelv went to pick up his offer letter of scholarship by UTAR and sending HT back to PD block to take his car, me and Kelv went to Soo Li’s house to wait for everyone.

At Soo Li’s house, helped Yvonne a lil bit on her assignment while waiting CK to bring Gin and Xinyi back from Mid Valley. Xinyi, who came back later, having a hard time (again =.=) to decide whether or not to give and which hamster to give to KY. At last, she asked me and I had chosen the black one, which I think was the cuter 1. Head the MC after that by bus cause CK was driving his cute kelisa which that I missed so much and he had to fetch all the girls, so being a gentleman (do I had any choice?), me and Kelv took the bus to MC and 5 minutes later before the bus leave the stand, Soo Li came up and told me that she’s heading to Low Yat to accompany SH. Frustrated because that I had planned to celebrate both KY and SL birthday together. So by making sure she promise and will come back later for the celebration, we head on to MC and found CK them sitting at the canteen. Waited for KY to bath, it took about 40minutes I think. Then Xinyi and Yvonne decided to head home first because SL will not be back before 8pm. Had our dinner while waiting. Although I wouldn’t say that the food there was VERY good but still it’s quite ok for a canteen food. Had a nice chat with each other there while waiting for SL and SH back to MC.

When everyone’s there, we took out the cake and ask KY and SL to cut the cake and divided it to everyone. The cappuccino cake which was bought by CK them in Mid Valley was quite nice but it will be better if it was cool. Then after the small celebration and chatting and giving out the present I had for SL and some hugs to KY from everyone, me, Kelv, SH, SL, JS decided to head back to Setapak by LRT. SH and SL board off at Wangsa Maju station as they need to head to JJ for the pillows if I’m not mistaken. On the other hand, Kelv and JS followed me back home because I had offered them a ride home earlier before. But what a big mistake I had made. I didn’t make sure that the keys were at home when I offered them the ride. As usual my dad was kinda absentminded and always took the keys with him even though he is not driving at all. That makes me so frustrated and guilty for making them walk all the way to my house and not able to drive them home. Later on, JS called his sis for a ride home and then we walk Kelv to get a cab. Sorry guys!!!

Later that night, Kelv sms me to tell me that he had reach TBR safely. I’m glad that he is safe as well know that TBR, especially at night wasn’t really safe at all. JS’s sis reach my house 5 minutes later and I went to bed after some chat with him over msn. I had a headache that night and I can’t really sleep well because the guilt and the frustration that I’m such a bad organizer and planner. I hereby vow, to all my friends, that I will do better next time!!!! That’s all for my version of KY’s birthday celebration. Kindly note for Kelv’s and maybe KY’s blog for more details IF I had missed out anything……

Another Monday~

Oh today was a tiring day, did another building material practical and Im all wet and dirty by those cements and sands and concrete and...and...oh swt...and went to the cafeteria and saw FK and Kelv there queing up for the foods...wonder what they were waiting...can you imagine the canteen at UTAR is actually out of food and the chicken rice shop was cooking the chicken when i reached there...wow...another black Monday I guess.....well I came across an interesting mail from my mom and I felt that I copy and paste it here was way more better than fowarding it...here it goes~~~~

The 4 wives

Once upon a time... there was a rich King who had 4 wives.He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave her nothing but the best. He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was always showing her off to neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that one dayshe would leave him for another.He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidante and was always kind, considerate and patient with him. Whenever the King faced a problem, he could confide in her to help him get through the difficult times. The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However, he did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her. One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was near.He thought of his luxurious life and pondered, "I now have 4 wives with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone."Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I have loved you the most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.Her answer cut like a sharp knife right into his heart.The sad King then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good!When you die, I'm going to remarry!"His heart sank and turned cold.He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned to you for help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave."Her answer came like a bolt of thunder and the King was devastated. Then a voice called out:"I'll leave with you and follow you no matter where you go." The King looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, she suffered from malnutrition.Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance!"In Truth, we all have 4 wives in our lives ...Our 4th wife is our body.
No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die. Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, it will all go to others.Our 2nd wife is our family and friends.
No matter how much they have been there for us, the fur! thest they can stay by us is up to the grave. And our 1st wife is our Soul.
Often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the ego. However, our Soul is the only thing that will follow us wherever we go.So cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now! It is your greatest gift to offer the world.Let our Souls Shine!

Well what do you all think?

Friday night, Saturday thinking...

Phew, finally get rid of the head breaking assignments (some of them). I felt lighter by now and wanted to write something. It's Friday night, and I had a tea/dinner time with 2 of my secondary classmates (actually one of them are UTAR student too) and had a nice chat with them. Well this makes me miss everyone even more...

Had a funny converse with KY just now and this makes me thinking is it that really hurts when someone close to you before this. but then changed the attitute towards you all of a sudden? Well, for me I would feel hurt and will confuse me with questions "why would became like this?" "Why all of a sudden they seemed not to recognize me?? Is it that they didn't see me here? Should I call upon them?" KY told me he was paralyzed by this act of abnormality. Maybe he had had enough of this and don't give a DA**n about it. But, for me I wouldn't like this to happen. Maybe someone know me out there would say that I always told them that I would not talk to them anymore or I would just ignore them forever, but then that was when once I was depressed about this relationship thing and now its all over...

Maybe what KY said was right afterall, its hard to maintain relationships between those who always been together and seen each other everyday. Its hard to keep in touch with each other in study life and we shall wait till when we went to the working stages in our life. Its nothing to argue about cause it was just another different perspective but I shall say that I hope even IF we didn't meet each other everyday, even if one of us were too busy but then it is worth some time to spend with your friend even just for a mere 10minutes on the phone or sms. For those who meet everyday then the bond in between shall be stronger shouldn't it?

By now I really felt dissapointed to some of the ex-classmates in secondary school. They dont even want to reply messeges. Unlikely to say they actually CHOOSE not to reply just because we don't see each other alot. Some say they were busy for the upcomming STPM exam but then there is still someone close that will sometimes, even at midnight, will send a simple goodnight messege to wish and tell me that they were good at the mean time. Time can proof everything and it proves who that is will really worth for you to sacrifice your time and to share your feelings and goodies together......




" Friendship is not a single-sided relationship. It shall be two-sided. One who willing to sacrifice their time just to litsen to your miserable encounter, ready to lend a helping hand whenver you needed, tells you about something happy and share the happiness together. are someone that is worth for you to do the same to them. Don't just open up your hand and take from others, be considerate and give something in return."

Fourth Week

Its fourth week already, and the dramatic life of degree in UTAR has yet not subsided but then it became more hectic as time passes by. Well getting used to the new environment and fortunate enough to know some new friends. Getting used to the pace of the lecturers and tutors by now and getting hold of those crazy assignments...

The craziness has yet keep bugging me. I still cant understand anything thought by the Environmental Science lecturer Dr. Ir. Heng...Crazy enough he used to skip those slides while teaching and the routine of going for his class was just to wait for him to stop his lecture and let us leave. Its torturing enough to attend his class and yet learn nothing and the subject was crucial and I would say the hardest amongst all my subjects in this semester.

Well, other than just this ES other things are fine, getting back to the normal day life, chatting, eating playing, studying, and maybe start to blog back.( yeah I think I should do this more often to realeases my stress from the Dr. Heng....) Well, just got my assignment last week. Huh, not the normal assignment we did in the foundation anymore. This is just a homework, and the crazy thing about it is that the lecturer thought that he was so smart, he wanted prevent plagiarism and hence he asked us to do it in point form...well point form was nothing, but a page of point form was crazy...

Time passes by so fast it was like just a second before I was still in foundation and now I was in degree. The sarcasticism are just like being laughed by someone else for our foolishness. Time are precious and we must kept time precious as our dearest friends and family so then we wont lost track of them...


"Sometimes I think back, how foolish I was when I was young. I hated myself for being that way. Well that can't be changed, it can't be helped as it had happened before we even knew that we did it wrong. But not foolish enough I was, I remember what I did and I will not get hold by it and I will head foward to my life without repeating the same foolishness I was used to be..."

Degree

Oh well, its the second week of the degree life. Its still kinda hard for me to adapt to the new situation, especially all my friends were in different classes and different courses. Well, Im trying to know new people here and luckily most of them are really friendly. Ah, starting of the stressing days again. Its kinda ackward when you sudenly started your school days again after a long holiday...

Hmm, in these 2 weeks many had happened in UTAR Setapak here. Well, the most "baddest" things that happened is that. neh that girl there, the petite little girl that we all know, OS la...dare her, she passed by me everytime and didnt even take notice and even bothered to say hi...ah dissapointed. Oh I had even saw her in the canteen eating with a guy and so politely the way she act and even collect the plates of that guy for him after dining, oh she never even help me once before...hahahaha...just kidding...

Hmm, my course was abit wierd. Totally new and different subjects were learned and no others in UTAR (I mean all my friends) had the same subject as mine. How am I gotta get help in my assigments? Well, I think it is about time for me to work for myself...so far Setapak Campus was ok for me. My timetable wasnt packed at all so I had alot of free time to do my work at home too.(pitty those who had alot of works and a packed timetable, especially those engineers)

Well, getting used to the new environment is easy, but it is hard to maintain the old relationships. I hoped everyone will remember each other and do gather round sometimes.Well, thats all for now...


"Once you've done something, don't look back, feel regretful and keep saying sorry. What you need to do is just tell yourself that you will never repeat it again, better still, dont do it in the 1st place. Be responsible for yourself and for people around you."