Sunday, November 4, 2007

Stealing free time...

Fuyah!! Long has passed and its already one month since working. Missed out alot of fun with friends but still, Im still as happy as ever as long as everyone is still here!

Phew, finally got sometime to have a break. Guess what, I've ben promoted to ATM (Assistant Team Manager)......this is surely a hard job...Im going to lose alot this month I guess. Spending time to train my teammates is sure a hard job....Oh no not really hahahaha, they are really good at it for a first timer, I guess they will be rich in a week or two hahahaha....

Well, since Im just stealing some free time I have from work to blog this so this shouldn't be a long one.....Just to say that Im really having fun doing this job and I never had such an enjoyable job before!!!! I love this job and I like everyone that is working together, I've learned alot that I couldn't learn in school....Aloha and Adios!!!!



"A problem is not a problem until you think it is a problem, if you don't solve the poblem then the problem will definately solve you. As a power of combine, you can beat through everything that is on your way, so don't lose anyone that is around you!"

Monday, October 8, 2007

Day off

Today is supposed to be a day off for me...but since me and all my partners (4 of them) were doing our practical on field training last week (Friday, Saturday, Sunday) so our boss asked to go back to office today and do a review for this 3 days sales (which will be later...now is only 11.45am)...well...Im doing good so far....although the day is not doing that well...(it keeps raining when Im on work...which means disturb and interuption of work since our booth is at the main entrance of Cineleisure)

Well, apparently my boss happen to be fullfilling his promise on us although we are not hitting the target,(he promised on giving us a free big chicken as the treat of if we did a 20 sales on that particular day .....but so unlucky we are...we only get 19....) thanks boss!!!! Today the 4 hour review and proposing is really pressuring....stressful as it is...our boss actually(I just knew it today...=.=) try to and forcing us to do something that is not supposed to be done on our level...which means he is pressuring us to do something more.....wao...I understand...because I've gone through that...and it really is pressuring...but hey...no pain no gain right?? Haha!!

Well, this is the worst day off that I've ever had....my boss is pressuring us (AGAIN!!) by asking us to do something that we didn't even expected that will come so fast.....tomorrow...we will be going to server the SME (small medium entreprise if not mistaken)....serving bosses and business man sure is quite and really harder than serving customer that went for shopping right?...YA right...I think so...Tomorrow will surely be a deadly day to pass.......Im still thinking what should I do.....

OH ya.....before I end, just to say...since Im doing quite ok with my work so IF anyone interested in joining in can gimme a call if you wish to pressure yourself hahahaha....and the meal treat I think has no problem already....cause I think at the end of the month I will sure be earning more than enough for just a meal (if I keep the work going on as well as possible and hardworking ofcourse) so be anticipating ya!!!! Ciaoz!!!! Waiting for another dying day!!!!



"Sometimes human just can't think possitively. If you have the time to think on something that is unneccessary why not use your time wisely? If you have the time to HATE someone, why don't use the time to concentrate more on someone that you love???"

Thursday, October 4, 2007

Day of?? Maxis?? Training?? Blogging?? DEAD...

Phew!, finally Thursday is here... what a long week...never had a holiday is like what I've been going through now....well...I found a job on last Thursday, thank god I found one, the training is on Monday...thats harsh...

Monday- Training, (mood = anticipating)
Well, this is the 1st day of training. I woke up early as usual and get ready to go for KLCC for my 1st day of training. I never expected what is waiting for me there...a total nightmare....er..daymare..or what ever....I reached KLCC rather early together with my friends and waiting for my team leader and my boss. After that we've met some other guys as well(future teammates)Boss started the training by explaining about Maxis (the company im working for is one of the exclusive partner of Maxis) and what we should know to earn our own money...haha...sounds funny?...its not at all...then we head on with the product knowledges...whats comming next is really killing me....real time on field training...we need to get to change to uniforms and then head on to promo and try to close cases....I've never expected this to happen...I never dreamed that promoting this would be that hard....I failed the training for today...I did'nt get any business at all..no cases..."eat the air"...atleast I've met some new friends today...(I've learn one thing though...do not be harsh on promoters...)

Tuesday- Training day two, (mood = kill me)
Today is a lil bit special...we don't have to be at KLCC any more...phew, what a relief...we get to learn another product's knowledges...then something stupid happened...our boss require us to propose a way to hit our sales target..swt...god help me again please...I've never done any proposal before...how am I gonna get through this??After some talking and teaching...we've been send back to KLCC (not again!!!) for another product's training....well...unfortunately...there is insufficient uniform for all of us...so a new comers get the chance to promo for the day...and to our suprise...he is good at it!! But...still no case closed for the day..haha...unlucky...

Wednesday- Training day three, (mood = KILL ME FAST!!!)
Hell, today is the day to submit the proposal....dead...Im totally dead...reach there as early as ever...well...after some teaching for the final product...we've finally get to propose our proposal...and...the answer is...everyone is dead...with a misconception of doing the proposal...everyone did it in a wrong way...Now I know why we need to do the proposal...its because we (full-timer) will later on need to propose the products and ways to make sales for the company...(Im goin to be dead at this...)and then we get a 20 minutes chances to think for our new proposal...and taada....we've been assign to jobs following our proposal...(Im proposing to do a booth at steven's corner in Setapak...)A 3 days operation and I can't wait to die...kill me pls....

Thursday- day off, (mood = sleepy)
Phew, day off...not a bad idea eh?? Gosh...not at all...I can't relax....why?...because there will be a electricity shut down for day time...what the heck!!! Gotta find something to do or somewhere to go with my friends as soon as possible since the electricity is still on!!!! Finally went to KLCC (what??? again???) with 2 of my friends because one of them needs to buy a set of formal wear for his job...Not bad....went to KLCC then back to Jaya Jusco again to hunt for cheaper formal wear...out of my expectation....I've met alot of people here that I've long lost connected...
Matheena - friends last time working at Jaya Jusco...didn't have time to chat with her though
lost connection for sometime...
Wei Chee - friends since foundation sem 1...for some of you who don't know she is Isaac's girl friend...she seems like working at JJ for now...long time never met her since degree...lost connection...
Yew Choong - My class rep....didn't expect to meet him here at Desa...crazy...but at least he said hello to me....not like someone...
Joey - The someone....girlfriend of YC....I called her name more than 10 times and she didn't even look at me...and when I really passed by her...she looked...but didnt even said HELLO...swt...She is gonna be dead when we are back to UTAR...
Anthony - wow...knew him since kindergarden....Msia champion of Yu Gi Oh card game and appointed by Msia to go for competition at USA....long lost connection too...
Cherry - I miss her most....primary classmates....long long long long time didn't met her already...seems like she's gone prettier!!! swt...what am I talking??.. Yikes..........

Thats all for now....bloggin soon....Im goin to be dead....soon....very soon....see ya'll in Hell...




"Don't ask what others can do, ask what you can do for others. Don't ask about god and ghost while you don't even understand human, dont ask bout the dead while you don't understand the living" - Confucious

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Blogging? Or not....

Ahh….its good to be back here….well...holidays are here….computer back from the “hospital”….no exams…no assignments….waiting for work….then that means no reason for me to not starting to blog again….

Hmm….its been a while since I blogged…so there is nothing to blog about suddenly…or shall I say there are too much to be told in here that I don’t know where to start from….or with…or what eva….can’t get hold of my language anymore…felt that Im getting weaker everyday….maybe it’s the exhaustion of finding work everyday…waking up early in the morning…go out…find job…come back late…eat sleep late….well…that’s the way it should be though….

Well, this is the 1st time I have such a long holiday since I am studying in UTAR…and it felt really weird….I can’t even find a proper thing to do….its been so wild since degree started and everything must have been dropped to zero when the holiday was declared…I felt so…empty…hahahaha….well that’s the way holiday should be isn’t it? Gotta get hold of my mind…

Well its still a long way to go…so I shall just stop here and say to myself :”Welcome back!!!!”



A person who doesn’t learn from mistakes is a person who will never be successful. A person who is not reliable is a person who will never learn, learn from mistakes is the way to survive in the future and be successful.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

A day that Damson feels "red-faced"

Oh dead! I shouldn't had been to my class today! Its a bad day and embarrassing!! For this is the revision week for my Management Principle class, hence I woke up early as usual and went to class 30minutes before the class starts. Its like a lightning strikes when my lecturer, a.k.a Mr. Patrick telling us that, his revision class is different. He is not going to tell us wat is the tips but ask us to give him the tips...swt...well so he divided the 4 chapters that he is going to cover up for us this week to all the courses that are taking this subjects. Then bla bla bla...reached chapter 10 which is the chapter that is divided to my course and da da da dang!!! "Ong Yee Thye!!" wow....I think i should went go buy ToTo...IM the 1st person in my class to go out infront of everyone in DK2A to spot question for them!! swt...being desperate (mostly because this chapter's lecture notes is kinda complicated and...its the most complicated and hardest chapter) I went out and simply bang them a sub topic that is actually not really important at all (knew it after he discuss this chapter). Well this is the 1st embarrasing ocasion that will normally happens to me when Im in a bad luck mode...

After the one and only class I have for Thursday, me and my classmates decided to have lunch at our usual TBR restaurant. Right after we enter the restaurant...its dark outside and windy and seconds later rain is pouring down....The God must be crazy giving me a hard time like this..well after a 30 minutes waiting i decided to ask my fren for his car key and tried to drive the car over for them because I dont wanna waste any time waiting there for nothing...then i rushed to the car where he parked it and when I looked into the rear mirror I saw 2 of the QS students(girls) which in the same class with my course are asking me to reverse the car before they do it(they so incidentally parked their car behind my friend's). I must be very nervous and crazy because the next thing i do is like a reckless driver and unexperienced one....I try to reverse the car (Nearly banging other's) for about 10 minutes (again embarrasing myself) and then thinking that "they must have thought that Im stupid" I successfully reverse the car by doing it straight to the junction before I do a quick U-turn and dissapear out of their sight before I do any stuffs that is goin to embarass me again....

Actually I wanted to say that...especially to them...That is not my car....I'm not used to drive cars like Proton Wira....its too low compared to my lovely Kembara!!!!......Im a so called good driver too....I can drive properly....there must be something happening to me today.....T.T

well thats the end of the story....this blog will again be closed until the souls of Damson comes back after the Finals!(hopefully) And thanks for the concerns guys! I appreciate it!


"Do not try too hard to grab hold on something that isn't yours, try to release them and let it go. You will feel better after doing so. Life isn't what we can predict even if we had already plan for it, that is why there is the word 'unpredictable'!"

Friday, August 10, 2007

Lost of soul

This blog will be temporarily shut down until Damson found his soul back....

Saturday, July 7, 2007

Nothing special..

Today, I read something really meaningful, again, so I think I should post it here, I think some might have read it before but its still meaningful to me…

Sand and Stone
: TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERT. DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE. THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."
THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH. THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM. AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE: 'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE". THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?" THE FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT.

'LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE. THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL
PERSON, AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY TO LOVE THEM, BUT THEN AN ENTIRE LIFE TO FORGET THEM.'


Last week, I had an argument with my friend. One of my best friend. Actually it was about his behavior. Non had know about his personality. He actually looks like a happy person and every time coming up with some stupid idea to make every one laugh. But actually inside him he was just suffering…

Well, I don’t feel like talking bout other’s privacy so I will just keep it short. Well, is it that being a caring to friend is a sin? I don’t felt sinful but I think maybe just our way and definition of caring was different. Or, sometimes just the way we do it makes them felt pressuring. But I don’t understand what’s the matter of standing out and face the problems?

Sometimes, I think we should just learn to let go of something that doesn’t belong to us and continue with what we have. Feeling bad about having it, why don’t let it go them???
Ah! Just another crappy thingy, well, good luck everyone for the up coming weeks! Mid term is near! Ja!



"Some times when we people looks up to the sky, the Nation of God above the clouds…for us it seems like a dream, or a fancy fantasy. But, if we listen carefully with full concentration, we will able to hear the bell that comes from ten thousand miles above us. Today we heard it. Tomorrow we will hear it too. The bell that is loud above the sky, is the song of glory that sings and praises the mother land…” – One Piece

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Just another crap...

Another 27th June like all the 18 years I’ve lived up to. But this year its different from all the previous, its my “bro” KY’s birthday and I had planned a birthday celebration for him. Up to that day only I know that, I’m a total failure. I failed to convince everyone to attend the birthday celebration and it had turn out to be a lame one. And then I failed to send JS and Kelv home. I really failed my management eh...

Here are the details of that day

Morning, I woke up unwillingly (just skip this part cause this is what I usually did, wake up from my sleep unwillingly) and then brush up and head to my 1st class which was 8.30am in the morning. I manage to run through the class while sms-ing Kelv and Chee Ken to make sure about the planning later on. Yeah, I remembered, today was KY’s birthday and I’m the one who did the POLC of the celebration. My class ends at 10am and hence I went to the cafeteria in SC block to pass my time. I had a nice chat with JC which was having her breakfast and was waiting for her class to start, and John. J too which was having his break at the moment. Later that, (about 5-10 minutes later) I received the sms from Chee Ken and he found me at the café and OS too were there and we made sure that who was following to PJ as earlier I was told by Kelv that he will be heading to SP for KY’s present. 10.30am I went to SA block’s lobby to wait for everyone. Unwillingly OS called and found me sitting at the corner of the lobby and CK then arrived 3 minutes later. We had a brief chat and OS decided that she will not head to PJ after all since Soo Li and Gin’s gang were busy and might not attend the celebration (the excuse she gave was that she had taekwondo lesson the day before and she was tired…swt…).

At last, knowing that most of the people here in Setapak aren’t going to the celebration, which made me feel really down, I decided to head to PJ and SP with Kelv. Kelv reached the lobby at about 11.30am which was the time we agreed to meet each other there. Then we head to the LRT station by taxi and there goes our journey to PJ. In the LRT, we were wondering where to go after SP because I heard from Kelv that Cyn and HT were really busy and its only 12.30pm that we will be reaching Asia Jaya. No worries, we reached AJ by 12.30pm just like what I had estimated. Well, a bad news when I saw Cyn’s kancil, there’s already 4 people in the car and how can it survived having 6 passengers in it and drove all along the high way (till now I still don’t understand…swt). We actually went to SP, HT and JS having their big time (leg cramps) and straight away head off to the pet central. Cyn had fun with some hamster while me and Kelv having a hard time choosing which cage to buy for KY and where to get the hamster.

Finally without many choices in the shop (as all the cages was quite expensive). Kelv and Cyn decided to head to other pet shops to have a look, so we decided to just buy a ball (which is a toy for hamster to roll around by running inside the ball). We found a hamster that’s doing backstroke and it looks quite funny. HT insisted to buy it but we decided not to because it looks infected as there’s a red spot at the back of its head. Then we saw a very active and cute hamster again and decided this time we will want this (but we actually got it mixed up I think because once the people from the shop opens the small room of the hamster they suddenly all got excited and jumping around). After getting the hamster and leave it inside the ball, we decided to head to KFC for lunch (or else Cyn will make sure she had enough from the hamster we just bought). After the lunch, we headed to Cyn’s little kancil again and this time we all felt quite uneasy but energetic because of the little hamster running around in the ball. A mere 10minutes later Kelv started to notice something weird on the hamster. Its having a hard time I think because I saw its very humid in the ball and the hamster was sweating and trying to find air gap so that it can breath.

10 minutes later the hamster started to stiffen and it’s an emergency cause we found that it actually fainted and flipped over together with the ball as we rolled it over to make sure that it moves. Trying to save it, we decided to let it out from the ball awhile to grasp some air. Lucky enough it came back to live and we actually arrived to the destination. Cyn, who had a hard time understanding the way pointed by Kelv and found a parking and park the car abruptly. Rushing to the pet shop, which was quite big, Kelv lead me to the hamster corner which it sells everything that a hamster needs, cages, beddings, foods, hamsters, and et cetra. After deciding the cage which was quite small, I think, I grabbed the food and bedding for the hamster and then we head to the counter so that our cute little hamster there wont have to suffocate again in that small rolling ball. Heading back to PJ after that and Kelv went to pick up his offer letter of scholarship by UTAR and sending HT back to PD block to take his car, me and Kelv went to Soo Li’s house to wait for everyone.

At Soo Li’s house, helped Yvonne a lil bit on her assignment while waiting CK to bring Gin and Xinyi back from Mid Valley. Xinyi, who came back later, having a hard time (again =.=) to decide whether or not to give and which hamster to give to KY. At last, she asked me and I had chosen the black one, which I think was the cuter 1. Head the MC after that by bus cause CK was driving his cute kelisa which that I missed so much and he had to fetch all the girls, so being a gentleman (do I had any choice?), me and Kelv took the bus to MC and 5 minutes later before the bus leave the stand, Soo Li came up and told me that she’s heading to Low Yat to accompany SH. Frustrated because that I had planned to celebrate both KY and SL birthday together. So by making sure she promise and will come back later for the celebration, we head on to MC and found CK them sitting at the canteen. Waited for KY to bath, it took about 40minutes I think. Then Xinyi and Yvonne decided to head home first because SL will not be back before 8pm. Had our dinner while waiting. Although I wouldn’t say that the food there was VERY good but still it’s quite ok for a canteen food. Had a nice chat with each other there while waiting for SL and SH back to MC.

When everyone’s there, we took out the cake and ask KY and SL to cut the cake and divided it to everyone. The cappuccino cake which was bought by CK them in Mid Valley was quite nice but it will be better if it was cool. Then after the small celebration and chatting and giving out the present I had for SL and some hugs to KY from everyone, me, Kelv, SH, SL, JS decided to head back to Setapak by LRT. SH and SL board off at Wangsa Maju station as they need to head to JJ for the pillows if I’m not mistaken. On the other hand, Kelv and JS followed me back home because I had offered them a ride home earlier before. But what a big mistake I had made. I didn’t make sure that the keys were at home when I offered them the ride. As usual my dad was kinda absentminded and always took the keys with him even though he is not driving at all. That makes me so frustrated and guilty for making them walk all the way to my house and not able to drive them home. Later on, JS called his sis for a ride home and then we walk Kelv to get a cab. Sorry guys!!!

Later that night, Kelv sms me to tell me that he had reach TBR safely. I’m glad that he is safe as well know that TBR, especially at night wasn’t really safe at all. JS’s sis reach my house 5 minutes later and I went to bed after some chat with him over msn. I had a headache that night and I can’t really sleep well because the guilt and the frustration that I’m such a bad organizer and planner. I hereby vow, to all my friends, that I will do better next time!!!! That’s all for my version of KY’s birthday celebration. Kindly note for Kelv’s and maybe KY’s blog for more details IF I had missed out anything……

Monday, June 25, 2007

Another Monday~

Oh today was a tiring day, did another building material practical and Im all wet and dirty by those cements and sands and concrete and...and...oh swt...and went to the cafeteria and saw FK and Kelv there queing up for the foods...wonder what they were waiting...can you imagine the canteen at UTAR is actually out of food and the chicken rice shop was cooking the chicken when i reached there...wow...another black Monday I guess.....well I came across an interesting mail from my mom and I felt that I copy and paste it here was way more better than fowarding it...here it goes~~~~

The 4 wives

Once upon a time... there was a rich King who had 4 wives.He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to the finest of delicacies. He gave her nothing but the best. He also loved the 3rd wife very much and was always showing her off to neighboring kingdoms. However, he feared that one dayshe would leave him for another.He also loved his 2nd wife. She was his confidante and was always kind, considerate and patient with him. Whenever the King faced a problem, he could confide in her to help him get through the difficult times. The King's 1st wife was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and kingdom. However, he did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her. One day, the King fell ill and he knew his time was near.He thought of his luxurious life and pondered, "I now have 4 wives with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone."Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I have loved you the most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.Her answer cut like a sharp knife right into his heart.The sad King then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is too good!When you die, I'm going to remarry!"His heart sank and turned cold.He then asked the 2nd wife, "I have always turned to you for help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave."Her answer came like a bolt of thunder and the King was devastated. Then a voice called out:"I'll leave with you and follow you no matter where you go." The King looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, she suffered from malnutrition.Greatly grieved, the King said, "I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance!"In Truth, we all have 4 wives in our lives ...Our 4th wife is our body.
No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die. Our 3rd wife is our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, it will all go to others.Our 2nd wife is our family and friends.
No matter how much they have been there for us, the fur! thest they can stay by us is up to the grave. And our 1st wife is our Soul.
Often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the ego. However, our Soul is the only thing that will follow us wherever we go.So cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now! It is your greatest gift to offer the world.Let our Souls Shine!

Well what do you all think?

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Friday night, Saturday thinking...

Phew, finally get rid of the head breaking assignments (some of them). I felt lighter by now and wanted to write something. It's Friday night, and I had a tea/dinner time with 2 of my secondary classmates (actually one of them are UTAR student too) and had a nice chat with them. Well this makes me miss everyone even more...

Had a funny converse with KY just now and this makes me thinking is it that really hurts when someone close to you before this. but then changed the attitute towards you all of a sudden? Well, for me I would feel hurt and will confuse me with questions "why would became like this?" "Why all of a sudden they seemed not to recognize me?? Is it that they didn't see me here? Should I call upon them?" KY told me he was paralyzed by this act of abnormality. Maybe he had had enough of this and don't give a DA**n about it. But, for me I wouldn't like this to happen. Maybe someone know me out there would say that I always told them that I would not talk to them anymore or I would just ignore them forever, but then that was when once I was depressed about this relationship thing and now its all over...

Maybe what KY said was right afterall, its hard to maintain relationships between those who always been together and seen each other everyday. Its hard to keep in touch with each other in study life and we shall wait till when we went to the working stages in our life. Its nothing to argue about cause it was just another different perspective but I shall say that I hope even IF we didn't meet each other everyday, even if one of us were too busy but then it is worth some time to spend with your friend even just for a mere 10minutes on the phone or sms. For those who meet everyday then the bond in between shall be stronger shouldn't it?

By now I really felt dissapointed to some of the ex-classmates in secondary school. They dont even want to reply messeges. Unlikely to say they actually CHOOSE not to reply just because we don't see each other alot. Some say they were busy for the upcomming STPM exam but then there is still someone close that will sometimes, even at midnight, will send a simple goodnight messege to wish and tell me that they were good at the mean time. Time can proof everything and it proves who that is will really worth for you to sacrifice your time and to share your feelings and goodies together......




" Friendship is not a single-sided relationship. It shall be two-sided. One who willing to sacrifice their time just to litsen to your miserable encounter, ready to lend a helping hand whenver you needed, tells you about something happy and share the happiness together. are someone that is worth for you to do the same to them. Don't just open up your hand and take from others, be considerate and give something in return."

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Fourth Week

Its fourth week already, and the dramatic life of degree in UTAR has yet not subsided but then it became more hectic as time passes by. Well getting used to the new environment and fortunate enough to know some new friends. Getting used to the pace of the lecturers and tutors by now and getting hold of those crazy assignments...

The craziness has yet keep bugging me. I still cant understand anything thought by the Environmental Science lecturer Dr. Ir. Heng...Crazy enough he used to skip those slides while teaching and the routine of going for his class was just to wait for him to stop his lecture and let us leave. Its torturing enough to attend his class and yet learn nothing and the subject was crucial and I would say the hardest amongst all my subjects in this semester.

Well, other than just this ES other things are fine, getting back to the normal day life, chatting, eating playing, studying, and maybe start to blog back.( yeah I think I should do this more often to realeases my stress from the Dr. Heng....) Well, just got my assignment last week. Huh, not the normal assignment we did in the foundation anymore. This is just a homework, and the crazy thing about it is that the lecturer thought that he was so smart, he wanted prevent plagiarism and hence he asked us to do it in point form...well point form was nothing, but a page of point form was crazy...

Time passes by so fast it was like just a second before I was still in foundation and now I was in degree. The sarcasticism are just like being laughed by someone else for our foolishness. Time are precious and we must kept time precious as our dearest friends and family so then we wont lost track of them...


"Sometimes I think back, how foolish I was when I was young. I hated myself for being that way. Well that can't be changed, it can't be helped as it had happened before we even knew that we did it wrong. But not foolish enough I was, I remember what I did and I will not get hold by it and I will head foward to my life without repeating the same foolishness I was used to be..."

Friday, June 8, 2007

Degree

Oh well, its the second week of the degree life. Its still kinda hard for me to adapt to the new situation, especially all my friends were in different classes and different courses. Well, Im trying to know new people here and luckily most of them are really friendly. Ah, starting of the stressing days again. Its kinda ackward when you sudenly started your school days again after a long holiday...

Hmm, in these 2 weeks many had happened in UTAR Setapak here. Well, the most "baddest" things that happened is that. neh that girl there, the petite little girl that we all know, OS la...dare her, she passed by me everytime and didnt even take notice and even bothered to say hi...ah dissapointed. Oh I had even saw her in the canteen eating with a guy and so politely the way she act and even collect the plates of that guy for him after dining, oh she never even help me once before...hahahaha...just kidding...

Hmm, my course was abit wierd. Totally new and different subjects were learned and no others in UTAR (I mean all my friends) had the same subject as mine. How am I gotta get help in my assigments? Well, I think it is about time for me to work for myself...so far Setapak Campus was ok for me. My timetable wasnt packed at all so I had alot of free time to do my work at home too.(pitty those who had alot of works and a packed timetable, especially those engineers)

Well, getting used to the new environment is easy, but it is hard to maintain the old relationships. I hoped everyone will remember each other and do gather round sometimes.Well, thats all for now...


"Once you've done something, don't look back, feel regretful and keep saying sorry. What you need to do is just tell yourself that you will never repeat it again, better still, dont do it in the 1st place. Be responsible for yourself and for people around you."

Thursday, May 31, 2007

心聲

"你可有想過自己的未來嗎?"每每母親大人向我提起時,我都啞口無聲.這並不是我沒有想起過它的答案,也不是我把我叛逆的行為當作答案萊幾我老媽的心.這只是我不知道如何回答她.未來對我而研究的的確確是未來.它是抽象的,讓人摸不著頭腦,根本就無法形容,無法掌握.不是我不去想,而是也許我想得太多了吧.我無法確定的找出一個明確的答案.有人說,"只要执著于自己的夢想,那怕事一步一步的走向它,還是可以避過重重的考驗而達到它的."但是現實中的人們是否真的可以做得到呢?事實上不是每個人都可以為自己的夢想而前進.空有夢想而所有的付出到頭來也是個空想的話那只會更加的令人傷心,更想放棄而已.這裡說的並不是事實的全部.其實還是有許多人可以完成自己的夢想的.他們或許是世界上頂尖的人物,也許是一個無名小倅.也罷,他們都是执著自己的夢想而成功的人士.可是,這裡所要表達的不是別人,而是筆者我.我的夢想並不明確,是非常的模糊.我的生活到了今天為止都是為了別人而擺動的.別人就有如"風",而我的生活就有如"被風吹動的旗幟".確實,我並沒有怨過任何的人和事情,最多也是偶爾說說兩句,睡著了醒來就不記得了.沒有目標的我應該也說不上甚麼未來吧.或許應該說是我不懂甚麼才是應改選上的未來.生性得過且過的我應該是這樣了吧?今天發生的就讓它發生,管他甚麼明天事......從小至今,生活都有母親大人為我安排,父親大人為我打點,只有一小部分是可以自做主張的.臥病不時說我是笼中之鳥,瓦中之鱉.只是選擇的事情到最後還是得要請示過家中的太上皇和太后.可能他們有他們的理由,也許他們是為了我好.我也沒有怨過他們半點.我還小,初生之犢不怕虎的我很可能會做出甚麼令自己會後悔的事情來.我是受他們保護的,我是應該感謝他們把我的生活都安排好.這些都是把我束縛成一個沒有主見的人.不是一切都沒主見的,只是到了人生的決擇上時我還是會讓他們選的.後悔的事,他們也有錯誤的時候......(待續)

Im Finally BACK!!!

Yo! The Master of Masters, Master Damson is back after a century.........

Friday, May 18, 2007

Addiction?

Hmm, its been awhile. Been on addiction to the Final Fantasy series hence I spend almost all my time living in these fantasy world...Yeah dont get me wrong, THESE fantasy world. Haha, I've been playing Final Fantasy 5 to 8 for the week, can you believe? I cant even believe myself now haha. Well, I've not finished everyone of it but I play them accordingly to my time....

Addiction of game is it better than addiction of drugs huh? But did you all know, that addiciton in game can still cause yourself being arrested and send into jail? Huh, no kidding. Just a few days before I came across some old game magazine in my drawer, so since I have nothing to do AND lack of reading materials so I decided on to find out some old games in the magazine which are interesting and I came across this funny little article written by one of the editor. Hmm, since it is all in chinese I will just tell the jist of it and not translate it...

Don't you ever think that it is a small case that you cheated someone in online game for their credit in game or their items. You think that the lawyers, judges dont understand the games and you can just fly by the case and nothing happen? In Taiwan there is a judge that plays online game and were one of the TOP 10 players in the game. And guess what, there are cases that this unethical act of player cheating others for their stuffs had been bring to court. NO KIDDING. Well, for example A cheated B for some gold and goodies in the game, then B can sue A for cheating his properties. Even if you said the golds and items in games was just virtual stuffs and doesnt cost anything but then again the players spends their money and time on the game to get those things. Some even can earn money by selling to other players. So in this case it is same as your real property and can be send to jail. Or you can settle this by just pay back what you had stolen or cheated and with extra money for the lost of others. But normally if this kinda cases happens in Malaysia and some more in cyber cafe, hmm, someone will just be send into hospital......

Ahh, its time to fly back into my fantasy world, well then, next time......Ja Ne!


"Cheating Really Is A Serious Offend!" - See UTAR PJ Campus Block A wall (I dont know bout other blocks)

"You wont believe that what you did will cause serious offend to others, when something bad happens you can just blame yourself for not thinking about it. Think before you act and act smartly."

Monday, May 14, 2007

It Finally Rains!

It RAINS!!!! Its finally raining here, oh my. Hmm, I think this is a good sign of a good beginning. The seemingly endless scorching flame of the sun has finally been covered up by the wonderful sprinkling clouds!! I felt good, cool breeze is everywhere bringing my soul to another end of the world (=.=+ crazy...) ...

Well, I have nothing particular to post up here. Just felt good that it finally rains after a few months and felt like telling it haha!


"Do not judge the books by its cover, do not assume anything before the results were told. The scorching sun was covered by the clouds, that would rain and bring us hope. Do not lose faith, one who doesn't believes in himself doesn't deserved to receive the success of his very own hardship." - Maito Gai



Guess who is this?

Friday, May 11, 2007

Whats the meaning of mine?

Argh, when is the hot day going to end? I cant stand it anymore...the scorching day is making me scorching hot inside and cant think of anything to write...Since I have nothing to write then I will just simply write something to update my blog hahaha...

Hmm, today was a normal day. An early awakening of my tired body, brush up and get ready to go for my DATE. Oh, its just going for badminton with one of my friend. Hahaha. Well, I have a decent walk from my house to the lrt station to wait for my friend to pick me up, humming some musical rhythm in my mind. It wasn't a long wait, I've just reach awhile before my friend and we went to TARC's sport complex and have an hour badminton TRAINING before I was send home.

After that I got a call and was asked to go for a gathering. For my surprise my friend was back from the matriculation in Kedah. Since we have not met in a while, I was really anticipating the gathering. Well, it turned out to be fun, as we just went to cyber(=.= typical Setapak school boys haha)like we did last time when we having free time to spend together. After the gathering, I had a 45 minutes walk home. Just great, another opportunity to lose my weight.

Hmm, something was bugging me for a long time. What is the meaning of life? What is the feeling of being dead? Well, I cant tell for the feeling of death but I think I can finally think properly for the meaning of life, of my life. For me, Malaysia education really doesn't suites me. I don't like to learn what that is not related. I hate being nagged to study and prepare for examinations daily. Instead, I like to think. Think beyond the normal. That's why something like whats the feeling of being death will come into my mind haha. As for my future, I plan to just find a work that I do not hate and have just enough salary to cover up for everything and maybe enough to save up...say 2k to 3k is already enough for me. Maybe when I have time I would like to travel to other places, learn other cultures and their way of life. I like to listen, but I seldom speaks but was forced to speak when I'm in primary school and in the end built up a crappy personality, but I still likes to listen. I like reading. so maybe I would spend a lot of time reading a lot of books till the day I died and then finally knew the feelings of death. That's what my plan for my future. But then everything is not going to be as I've planned...

The meaning of my life is not there, that's why sometimes I felt that I've been pressured and pushed out of my own trail. I need to act beyond what I usually wanted and betray my own self just to survive. I want to be free, if can I just want to learn and not for exams, is just for the sake of learning knowledge. What a waste that is, a lot of knowledge, too little time to know every of them. Maybe it is time for a change. Maybe I should face the reality. Maybe I should just go by the destined fate of mine and play my role correctly. Maybe I can let it be and then implement what I wanted into my current. Hmm, that sounds possible.

Ah, stop for all that dream. This the reality. The reality is not something that we can achieve our goals by just dreaming. We need to work for it. Work hard, and IF playing our cards right then we can achieve our goals. The seek of my meaningful life starts here I think. I should probably start thinking how to achieve the best lifestyle that I wanted in this disastrous reality. I cant just neglect what my decision will turn out affect my family and my future can I?


"Maybe we can't choose when to be born, in which era, in which century, in which country, in which family. But we can choose which was the best for us. No matter how the times flows, how the future turn into, we can still live the life we wants and the way we die. But, there is an important thing. We must not regret for it. We can only live our life once, be grateful and live with the way we wanted, with no regrets of which ever we had chosen to be."

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Thats me! (have it from Karen's blog haha)

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Yo, thats me hahaha...Im me and me Im...swt...

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.

You would make an excellent:

Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

The carrier thing is just so bullshit...swt...getting agressive...a nurse? me?...kid me not...

Your Dominant Thinking Style: Visioning

You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.
You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.

An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.
You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Oh my...what is this?...an idealist?...sounds...not bad...hahaha

What I am thinking in this 30 minutes...

Tuesday, 8th MAY 2007, 1.55a.m.

The night is warm, with its unusually hot air flowing all over the house. Or is it because my sitting in front of computer for a long period does that effect on me? It doesn't matter, blankness of my head causing me to unable to do anything to this post at the moment. Maybe I should give it a 5 minutes more to think about what I really wanted to write about.


Tuesday, 8th MAY 2007, 2.00a.m.

Listening to the midi. Relaxing. Thinking deeply how to construct my upcoming sentences, clause, phrase, words, alphabets...well...a little too much for that. A strong feel of writing but an empty mind without topic bounds me to where I am. Cant think of anything to write.


Tuesday, 8th MAY 2007, 2.15a.m.

Hmm, just watched a drama scene. Talking bout a rich guy with two wives and four children and how he be the great man in his family, maintaining the peace and harmonic between every family members. Well, family really does mean alot to everyone doesn't it? Without your parents you weren't here today, without your family you weren't you today, and what else? Be grateful if you have a lively family, be thankful if you have a parents that loves you so much that they were able to give up anything and everything just for you.

Think about it, when is the last time you talked heart to heart with your mom and dad? When is the last time you really communicated with them, sitting in front of them, talking about your problems, asking for "directions" and help, solving problems together with them? Or maybe, did you ever talk with them nicely even? Well, of course I hope everyone does communicate well with their parents well and love them as much as everything.

I myself sometimes have problems talking with my mom. Sometimes she is just so stubborn and wouldn't listen to what I am going to explain to her. But well, when I came to think of it every time after I quarrelled with her, I feel that there is a motherly love there. I knew she was just being too stern with her feelings and just cared about us and she wouldn't give up her point when she knew she was right (but actually my point was right too what...=.=). I love her and I really do.

As for my dad, he is a happy go lucky person. He wont hope for more and he was always being humorous and joke about everything that came to him. Even if my mom was mad he would just make some lame jokes about her...swt...I think that's the way he survived till now cause my mom, I would say frankly, was a pretty strict person and very serious about everything. Oh I have nothing to talked bout my dad, just that he sometimes are really annoying when he keeps asking us to shut up when my bro and sis are quarelling...swt...(family problems too much eh? haha, but I wouldn't call it a problem...)

Oh, for my siblings, I have one younger sister and a younger brother. Ah they cause not much problem. Just my sis always wants what everyone have and she often do not talk "nicely" what she wants from us and what she wants to tell. But it was alright since she was standard 6 and starting to obey me sometimes. My bro...smart but lazy...(like me, like elder like younger...swt)

For me, my family really means alot to me. Although there are noises all around when everyone was present but that means that they are all healthy, and at least, talking with each other. But sometimes I do hope my mom will listen to me before she concludes anything...Oh well, just hope...

Writing ends at 2.32a.m., 8th MAY 2007, Tuesday



"Family plays an important role in everyone of us. Without them we were nothing compared to the wilds. Without them we were just nothing today. Have sympathy to those without a family or a broken one. Tell everyone in your members that you love them, when you have the chance as you might not have the chance when you cant tell them anymore."








This is when my uncle's wedding last Xmas

Saturday, May 5, 2007

It sometimes really doesn't matters, but sometimes they do...

Its 11.33p.m. and the Superstar Show has just ended with a brand new superstar Henley! Wow, but I do hope Orange can win the prize hahaha...not being bias but she do have a very special voice and passionate singing style.

Oh stop crapping bout that already. A week has passed since the starting of sem break. The feeling of loneliness still following me around, accompanying me no matter when I'm sleeping, or eating, or bathing, or...oh what ever...I think some of you did have the same feeling huh?

Whats next? Oh, nothing...pure nothing...there is once a person said(sorry I cant remember the name) "To do nothing is really hard, as nothing is really nothing to be done" well that I think really has its own meaning there...been trying to find SOMETHING that can really inspire me, ignite the passion in me, to push me to MOVE AWAY from this bored computer.

Maybe I should find something to do in this holiday. Which 1 is better? Find a job? Or just plan some programme with friends? Oh, meeting with old friends isn'ta bad idea either...nah, all that seems nothing compared to reading I think. But, I've been lacking of reading materials. Hope I can find something interesting to read soon...


Ah, I came across something, so here goes my second philos


A boy was born, but his mother was dead after giving birth to this boy. No one ever blame the boy for his mother's death, although he knew that the fact he was innocent, but he can't omit the guilt in him. This is because the fate had linked his birth and his mother's death together and bind it. The feeling of guilty and the pressure shows no mercy, they pushed him to failure in his entire life, for him trying cover up something that he did not do wrong......


Sometimes in life we will make wrong decisions, or maybe we didn't consider about the consequences before we make our action. That will eventually turn out to be something that pressure us if somethings goes wrong with our act. The guilt that will always follow us. But there is one thing, sometimes it really isn't our fault even if it turns out badly. I think that we shouldn't claim everything to our own even if we are the one who make decisions. Neither do the others as they did nothing wrong just like the boy. There is no one to be blamed on his mother's death as that is his mother's time has arrived. Well, maybe I'm just plainly wrong about it but that is what I think by now. Even if we claim everything to ourselves but then it wont be any help anymore as it had already happened and there is no way back. The only thing we can do is, think twice and think wise before we made any decisions after that.



"FATE has HIS own story written in his books, and we cant change to storyline as we are just someone playing a role in the story. What we can do is by playing our roles well and be careful of what we are going to do as it really matters to ourselves or to the others."


Friday, May 4, 2007

Its all thinking back...

Its Friday evening, back from Megamall and from the movie Spiderman 3. The street was scorching, the air feels dry. Im sitting infront of the computer viewing those old picture, that was taken long time ago and recently. I "stumble across" those drama pictures we've taken along the scenes. Well, that makes me kinda think back of the times where and when we were having alots of fun together...


     Stunning acts of the bohn-bons!


Spending times with friends are really fun for me. Even if just sitting at Burger Kings and was just blowing about the latest features of computers, or games, or movies, or even talking bout friends that we knew. Atleast it is better than sitting at the living room and do nothing.



    Taken last day of Foundation Studies


Then, I looked at the 1st ever birthday celebration with Gin Gin. Thinking back of it, kinda happy that day even if the cake I bought was just used for "cake war". Happy moments was just so short I think. Wonder when is the next time I can celebrate again with them? Whos next? Onn Sein maybe(hope my shirt and hair wont get those creams)? Hahaha...



  This is a rare 1, hope I wont be whacked by SOMEONE




Well, I think this is when it all started, the romance of CK and Gin...


Oh, its time for dinner, well gotta rush for it cause of my tummy is already "thundering" inside...



"History is to be learn, the past failure is to be forgotten, memories are just something that you wanted the most at times. Do not let the past haunt you, let it be a part of your memories and maybe when you flash back on them sometimes, you will notice a sweet smile on you or yourself laughing for your own silliness. Then? You will just move on merily as if nothing had happen."

Is it because...?

Everyone remember that poor guy stabbed death by the robber who studied in TARC last year? Or that girl being violated and nearly raped in TARC? Or Ms Kong being robbed and badly injured? Even myself has being robbed twice although the second time I was being asked for the money "nicely". From all, I found a common facts related. All TAR(University/College Tunku Abdul Rahman) students are related(LOL).

Why? Why all these incident are happening in Malaysia? Is it the government authorities should be blamed of? Is it because the police aren't doing their part? Or is it the breed since the day they(robbers/thefts) were born that had brought up a wrong mindset? Or should we blame them themselves for doing such "good deeds" to us?We students often wrote essays about social problems, but have you ever think deeply? Why this cant be solved? Or the Ministers didn't look upon the consequences and subsequents of it and handle it just by pushing it to the subordinates to handle themselves?

My mom just came back from Singapore (watched Phantom of the Opera there, I wanted to watch but of the Management study....) few days ago and she compared between Singapore and Malaysia (again. She went to Singapore to watch Miss Saigon few years back then). This is the sentence I heard her saying more than 10 times without her conscience knowing that she had repeated it that much : "Singapore ARE REALLY a safer place than Malaysia". Ah, and why was that? Singapore is a country that prosper, there are more "millionaire" than us here in Malaysia and why the robbers/thefts chooses to stay here and not in Singapore?

If you say "Oh, they are those nasty little Indonesians", "They probably sneaked in to our country and jobless". Oh, they are wrong indeed but I don't blame them as much as when I found out these, "They are Malays, wearing....."(from the victims), "Oh those Indians are so fast, I cant even run away"(yet another victim) or my version, "There are 6 of them, short and tall but all skinny, Malays I call them, rascals barbarians...."(this is my version of being robbed) Oh my GOD, Malaysians O' Malaysians. Those Malay guys they get everything better than us Chinese and yet they still wanna rob us?

These are not the worst cases. Those culprits, call themselves the good guy, didn't even lend a helping hand when the victims need them. Doctors, can you imagine a doctor who refused to help a badly injured person and he was just within a walking distance? Those people who passed by don't even care to call for help?Those busy bodies who came and look at the victim but do not even care to send him to the hospital or clinic? These I call them ba******. Why don't they help? If one day they are the one who is robbed and injured, I hope there is someone there to help them so that they will know. Kinda think of it, will I myself give a helping hand? I think I would. That's what I learned from PBSM in secondary school. Never leave a person unhelped.

Its 8.30a.m. in the morning. I supposed I gotta get ready for the movie or else KY would say something as I hold the tickets (wicked, ngek ngek ngek). Well then, see y'all later!

p/s: sorry if this post troubles you, I just woke up and has the urge to post but I cant construct my sentences well, hehe.


"You can't change the fact that it happened. But you can change the fate of the ones who caught into it even by just calling for help. And you can still change the fate that it wont happens to you now and then."

Thursday, May 3, 2007

Just crapping for nothing...

THE BALANCE TALK
Balance. Ever think of it? Whats the balance of the livings? Whats the balance of life? There is no precise answer. For me, the Nature has yet not met its balance, and neither will it for as long as it lives. Yin & Yang appears when the Nature, the Earth was borned. This two forces trying to cover up each other to meet the balance on Nature. But, if the balance is occured, why then are they still doing here? Thats it, they never made it to the balance. The World will not reach its balance.

From my point of view, thats the balance of the Nature, never to be balance. If your dont have yin(shade) then there will not be yang(lights). If there is no short then there will be no tall there is always something existed to be compared of. Thats the way we are, comparing each other. Ever wonder about the ecosystems? There is said the ecosystem must be on balance so that it can continue its cycles. But then there again, it never reaches balance. If it reaches balance, then there is really an unbalanced theory.

The Earth itself was made unbalanced. It rotates not in straight but a little bit of slacking to the side. There is extreme cool places where the eskimos lives and there is also extreme hot places where the Nomad lives. Some places has four seasons and some places has only one season. It is truely unfair in some sense but then thats the way it was.

NO PURPOSE
Motherly thoughts: "It will always be the elder's fault if something goes wrong, find him/her first before I settle the others..." why was that? Don't know....

Sometimes I kinda think that, "what am I doing here?" Well, there is no purpose we are born. We must find our own purpose to live on. "Why we study?" "We are learning, getting knowledges from the pass and present." But is it that way? Well, I can tell in Malaysia it is not. We study cause we need to pass all the exams, we need to get higher marks so to proceed on our education. Is that the main purposes of learning? Of the knowledge being passed on generations to generations? For me, the aim of learning is for the sake of knowledge, to build a mindset, a personality that can coupe with his/her own life in the future. Im not stupid if I cant score As' in my subjects, and that doesn't mean I cant do well. I just felt that the main is out of trails.

Whoa...look at the time. Its 2.30p.m. already and Im crapping nothing here, well just adding up my posts thats all. Gotta get back to my houseworks already...

"Never look down yourself when others look down upon you. They are just blinded by the false facts, you may look down at them, in despise that they do not understands the truth within the false."

The end? Or maybe NOT, It is just about to start..

It is almost 4a.m. in the morning. I cant sleep and sat upon of my computer, trying to think of something to write. Well, everyone seems to be very happy about this sem break, or shall I say the end of our foundation year? For me, it is just another starting, " is this the end?" " no, it is just about to start!" "hurry up and get ready, you're gonna get lost if you don't pick up the pace!". Yes, everything is just about to start.

It is already 4a.m. and I am still wrtting this blog. The sun is going to have it's power shining to everyone and everywhere it can get. The power of never endings. Everyday although its same; dawn, dusk, sun sets, sun rises everyday the same routine but it brings different occasions, different meaning to be searched with our souls, different experiences to be experienced by us. "Its not the end yet!" "Yes. I can still go on." This is what I will be telling myself starting from now. We must not lose faith and hopes so that we can proceed to the next level.

The end of my foundation year means the starting of my degree (although I still doubt that I can proceed to degree), start with meeting new people around me, not forgetting those wonderful friends back then. It is not the end of friendship, once a friend forver will be friend. A good starting means more goodies will come on 1 by 1 following each other. So prepare well for the up comming challenge...

But everything has its limit. Go over that and it will turn upside down. The rules of "yin & yang", showing us that we must'nt be too harsh on everything. Do not push yourself over the limits or you will just breakdown at that very point. Balance, yes thats the word for it. Keep track of the balance of physical and metal health so to improve ourselves...

Today is already 3rd of May. Has everyone packed and moved to new hostel? Or everyone has been packing home? Im wondering cause of the silenced living room the whole day yesterday and the day before. No one even mind calling(not you KY..lol..), I think they are busy packing and getting ready to go home.

There is always an ackward feel in holiday, maybe it is the sudden changes of daily routine that makes me feel uneasy, I cant fall asleep. I think I miss everything and everyone. Losing tracks of them, nothing to do but to just sit infront of the computer and good for nothing. Maybe it is time that I try to figure out what I really wanted. A blurr scenery of future up ahead awaits me to discover.

Can't think properly right now. I think I've lost track of myself at the moment cause it is 4.25a.m. in the morning. In an hour time my dad and my siblings are about to wake up and get ready to go to school. I sure miss everyone there, my old schoolmates that are studying form 6 now, my ex-teachers that are retired and/or still teaching in my ex-school. Well, no matter how I miss everything, or how I wanted to have the time return back to all those memorable times, I still need to go on. Not looking back but to look foward is the only way of life. Yeah, I understand it very well.

My back is aching, I think it is the warning my brain gives me that I had spent too much time sitting here. Well, got to go too cause I think I'm just merely crapping....

"Humans usually wont trust the truth if they don't see it with their very own eyes. But the truth is not just what we see with eyes and heard with ears, it is what we should learn with our heart..."

Thinking......

Well, this is crazy...thinking of starting a blog in bloggers really makes me sick. But then came to think of it, it is actually a good start for me...throwing away all the saddening stuffs in friendsters and start a new blogging life in here. Thanks to the ant compared to giant, the small size but eat like giant, THE GREAT Onn Sein showing me her wonderfull blog. This kinda inspired me to blog here and well...it is such a suprise that actually a whole lot of people really blogged here...haha...blogging really tiring sometimes...need to think alot...

Here comes my first philos.......

Apprentice: "Master, can you explain to me what is freedom?"
Master: "Which freedom you are asking?" the Master continues : "The first freedom is foolishness. Just like a big horse shaking the knight off its back, but that just makes the pain on its stomach feeling stronger in return." Master: "The second freedom is regrets. The regrets here is just like an old sailor that chooses to sink and drown with the ship rather than being on a safety emergency boat like others do." Master: "The third freedom is understanding. Understanding will only came in, saying : "ah!" after experiencing foolishness and regrets. Just like those wheats bending their bodies over the blowing of the strong wind. Because it bends down its soft parts and that is why they can overcome the strong wind." Apprentice: "Thats all?" Master: "Alot thinks that they are searching the reality in their souls. But, the truth is that there is a much greater soul considering and searching for them. It is just like the Nature, it allows all differences in it, but it can easiliy eliminate and substitute those who cheated it. Those who allows it to "think" in their hearts, will have "freedom" from it eventually. Just the same as the rivers helping the swimmers swim to the opposite bank, if they obey to the waves and let the waves brings them to their great destination......"

What do you think about the Master's teachings? Understand it might need alot of thinking. But if you think of it you might as well find answers to other questions as well. Lifes are full of wonders and uncertainties (hey this is the term in management...), finding the meaning of life is not by just thinking about your future, but is to really understand what your inner self really wanted. Believe your souls within you that brings you to the truth of what you are searching.....