Another thoughts when I can't sleep

Its 1.34a.m. 14th December 2008 when I started to write this. I can't fall asleep and just finished an hour phone chat with my dear god-sister which is working at Singapore. Felt relieve to know she is still doing good even if there is alot happening around her. Unlike me, I am those who can't bare any stressful impact that crush down on me. I don't know, maybe I am so weak to handle stuffs when they came in a shock, or I just felt lonely and wanted to rely on somebody to release the tension.

After chatting with my god-sister, I really felt better and came to think that people do live in differently. and that differences makes them stronger or weaker. I came across a friend who said that life is 10% of what we make and 90% of how we take and I wonder. Maybe she is right, even how we contribute to our life to make it better, but almost everytime the outcome is different and really shocking that we can't really accept the truth until the end that we are forced to accept it. But the other way round, if we contribute everything in it, mostly we will expect that the outcome is what we needed and so the 90% of what we make and 10% of how we take is here~

Whether or not, we still can't control our life in the way we want so no matter how we still need to accept everything that happens and here borns the Damson today, haha. Yes, my way is don't do much so that you won't have high hopes and won't fall so hard when you climbed not too high enough to hurt yourself. But sometimes I will ask, is it that I am wrong to do so? Maybe I am wrong, in some way, but I will try to be tougher to face problems and obstructions. Self-conciousness. yes, I really do need that. And optimistic to be, I am so not that person.

But all of all, what did you can expect when you, belanded by all the means stuffs in a row? In just a week you can have more than 7 kinds of unlucky happened on you, and meanwhile you never, yes, NEVER had any wonderful lucks on you? Yeah, shamed on me to be a crybaby buy hey, I am just crying here ok? Hahaha. People say that when Gods wanna give something good to a person, he will first try him by giving him a lots of bad "TRAININGS" to see his commitment. Maybe I am being tested by HIM, or maybe not because I am not any followers of any religions, so, please just treat me normally (to HIM who may REALLY be reading this) T.T

Yada yada yada, enough of sad stuffs. Christmas is near, everyone should be happily shopping around (yeah, there are sales everywhere). And if you guys planning to go anywhere, IF ANYONE REALLY DOES READ THIS, please let me in because I am so BORED at home!!!! And to those who abandoned me, you guys are still my friend, in some sense and I WON'T TREAT YOU THE WAY YOU GUYS DID TO ME! And so, be happy for this comming holiday and hope to have good news from ya'll when the next semester comes! Ciao!





"Being rich is not everything, there is something you can't buy. The real millionaire is those who have a lots of friends and families gathered around him/her everyday to share his happiness or sadness. One are not happy even if they have a lots of fortune, because they can't share them. Yes, a millionaire is those who are really happy in heart, and I am not one of them."