Unusual

Today is just a very bad day, or I rather call it funny day than bad. It is because everything happened today is just so unexpected (including 24th when I am typing this) as in Elene will call me on Sunday, which is one of the most busy day she will be having within 7 days in a week. And because I promised her that no matter what I am doing at the mo, that I will always oblige to her and then...I found myself in 1Utama. Not too shabby eh?

Apparently she don't feel so happy so I just acompanied her to whatever she wants to do until she feels like going home. It rained for a fine Sunday, yet another not so good things that happened. Got home, and starting from late night, I've been doing something stupid. I wonder why I did that? I just can't help but felt instantly that it isn't appropriate that way.

Ish, I ought to be shot. I WILL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN! Where the hell did I get the thought of doing so? Why am I doing it? I knew it will end up that way. Done, settled. This is the second and the last time I will do it. No more.
Let it be then, my future will be as dark as it shall be from the day I was born in to this not so bright world.

I guess my faith last here and forver burried within my mind.

Outings

Went to Sg Gabai two days straight which is on the 21st and 22nd of May. Bringing different friends to have a try at the cooling and nice place. Sometimes staying in the all-time-so-busy Kuala Lumpur is just so annoying to the extend that you head burst out of flame and you wanted to cool yourself by eating endless supplies of ice-cream. With the so varying weather, I've planned to go to seek out some waterfalls near by so that next time I can have another nice place to hang out other than going to movies or dinners or singing or clubbing (this I really seldom goes to) in the so congested city of Kuala Lumpur.

Nice view isn't it?

Yong and me, nice try lene...

To keep things short, I would say despite all the frustrations I have from my mom during the holidays, these two days would be the only best day I had in this holiday up till now. Ofcourse not only in Sg. Gabai but all the outings after it such as movies in Mid Valley Megamall, GreenBox midnight shouting, dinner at Restaurant Lau Heong (not bad, recomended). Been having fun for only two days, its so sad that my friend is going back to Kuantan. And to end this, thanks to everyone for their support : lene, Ken, Yong, Feng, and Wen! Thanks everyone for the wonderful trip! P/S: Anyone interested to go for this place? lol...I doubt anyone read...hahaha

"Being able to enjoy life is the most happy things that will befall on you whenever you let yourself to it."

My life dedicated to my siblings as driver! AGAIN!!!

Seemingly I´ve been deserting this blog for quite some times so I guess it is time for me to add in something before I feel like even forgetting about this blog even exsisted.

For the very first time I really really really really really felt that I am born to this family because my mom planned to have me do all the stuffs, especially being the ´HONOURABLE´ driver of my lil sister. While I am being the driver, I expect that I should atleast have some privacy or maybe my own free time but apparently, no one respected me. They don´t even bother to ask me whether I am free to drive them to any places. I mean they should atleast TRY TO ASK ME whether I am free on that time or not, so that I can arrange my time to drive them anywhere.

Yeah, on my mom´s perspective, it is my duty to pickup and send my sister and brother no matter what I have in planning or planned to do later on that day. I´ve spend most of my holiday being all-time ready to pick up my sister and send my sister to tuition, school, friend´s house. Uh! I hate this thing. Why can´t they atleast respect me? Can't they see that I have my own life to live too? I just somehow feeling like ditching my car so that I do not need to drive them anymore. And whats with that attitude my mom had with me after that arguement about sending my sister to tuition? And it is not even an arguement, I am just sounding out my thoughts and my mom got raged just by litsening to :"It doesn't matter what happened anymore because the plan got changed in the end and thats it." The hell she get raged and straight away urge me back into my room and she drive my sis to school. Ever after that she didn't even let me have a nice talk to her, whenever I called and say :"hey mom," and she will give me that WHAT THE HELL IT IS YOU attitude and even accusing me bout not talking to her in a all so respective tone!!! She didn't try to respect me, how am I supposed to talk to her in a very nice tone when she don't even let me have a nice feeling talking to her. I just so hate her attitude sometimes...though anyhow she is still my mom, I will still obey her and respect her. But I can't stand this anymore, again this situation goes on and I will burst out by yelling at her! And I am damn sure I will this time!




"Don't expect anyone to oblige when you don't even let them have the chance!"

Fair? Fed up with it

Been scrambling my thoughts right now. Have a major headache because I've slept for only 3 hours and my mom asked me to do all the houseworks, again. What a shocking fact is that, actually, it is not my responsible to finish off their job today. They've got enough time to just do the clothing, wash the dishes and yet my mom decided to shove it off at me. all while I was having my good sleep. Alright, I don't blame my mom for asking me to do the houseowork, I know that my dad is going back to the hospital for medical check up and she was as busy just to send everyone goes there and appointment (which I guess was going out for lunch with friends or what ever entertainment) at Kencana.

Why me actually, my mom said that I was only in charge for sweeping and mopping the floors (although I did not really does all the job sometimes, actually not really often I do the housework anymore...) and now she is jabbing all the hard edges at me. I hate this, what is my lil sis doing? What can't she just wash the dishes? What is the hell my lil bro doing? He is already 18, and yet my mom just can't entrust him with something as simple as the dishes? Why am I always the one in the family who had to do all the stuffs that is simple? I don't think my mom notices this but actually I've spend A WHOLE LOT of my TIME devoted to her so called jobs. Whenever I have my free time, she will just ask me to do this and that, and she had me engaged in every Wednesday and Friday nights just to send and pick up my sis, tuition. And, she would ask me to do the cooking (seldom now but it still happens) and had me engaged in every evening for picking up my sis from school. And seeing that I have classes most of the time, I don't really have my own sweet time. And I still have to worry about assignments and works (ya right, lie to me, duh~) and then where is my time to hang out and play the games I had in my computer? (hahaha, actually this happens because I spend them on the time that I was supposed to do revision and assignments...)

I don't want to spend my time this way, although I still manage to spend some time on the stuffs I like when I am in between of doing "my mom's jobs" but then isn't that such a spoil sport? I mean whenever I am reaching the climax of the story I am reading or movie that I am watching, then its times up for me to pick up my sis. What the heck is that? I hate that kind of things. And yet I can't do anything about it because it is my mom's order. Maybe I should voice it out? But then considering my mom's autocratic position at home. I don't think it is possible to even tell her that I wanted to spare some of my own time and ask her to divide some jobs to my bro. Its not like my siblings are not doing housework, but they have the luxuries. Urgh! My sis can get 50 bucks every month just for ironing my dad's uniform. Whats that? I don't even get a penny for doing the moping and sweeping all these years. What I get in return is that all the screeching and yelling from my mom, all about those housework that I've forgotten to do. My bro don't actually do the same amount of digit that he is supposed to. But my mom never even nag at him. And what I get by doing less job, the same old thing, yelling and scoldings about being lazy.

This is just so unfair, and whenever I am sitting infront of the computer, my parents will have the mindset that I am playing games, and actually the monitor screens is absolutely, obviously showing that I AM DOING MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!! Because the computer is just right beside the television, I don't choose to do my studies and homeworks whenever they are watching tv or during daylights whenever they are around. This is because that will distract me, from getting my job done. Because of this, my mom assumed that I never do homeworks, assignments, study, revision. What the hell. I am going to bang my head to the wall one day because of this unfairness she is giving me.

Being elderly in the family doesn't mean that I have all the responsibility at home. Maybe before the others are mature enough to handle, but at the age of 14 and 18? Why can't they just get the chance to learn?



"Although LaoTze said that the world is a combination of both yin and yang, good and bad, but there is always one thing that is dominating on earth, UNFAIRNESS!!!!"

Holiday?

Yes! Exam is over! But...what comes ahead is the endless boredom and fats and the rusted badminton racquets and basketball rim...

Holiday in May is always not the best that I have, and it oftens bugs me because everyone seems to be going for vacations up the hills, beach, overseas, city tour, and et cetera. While they are having fun of their life time, I will stay home baby sitting my sister, send her to school, pick her up, buy her lunch, prepare dinner...I ought to be shot!

Holiday always pair with part time jobs, earning money, self improvements yada yada yada. But the awkward situation is that I don't feel like working but I have to work so that I will get paid. The problem is that everyone is having fun while I work and when I want to hang out with friends, they are working/studying/not feeling to go out the second time. URGH!!!!! I hate it...

Well I guess I will just have to accept the fact that I am just not that lucky guy who was born in a wealthy family and well educated by parents to be a disciplined and yet out going person that can play full time in his life. Some responsibility had to be done because it came together with you when the day you were born.......