Fair? Fed up with it

Been scrambling my thoughts right now. Have a major headache because I've slept for only 3 hours and my mom asked me to do all the houseworks, again. What a shocking fact is that, actually, it is not my responsible to finish off their job today. They've got enough time to just do the clothing, wash the dishes and yet my mom decided to shove it off at me. all while I was having my good sleep. Alright, I don't blame my mom for asking me to do the houseowork, I know that my dad is going back to the hospital for medical check up and she was as busy just to send everyone goes there and appointment (which I guess was going out for lunch with friends or what ever entertainment) at Kencana.

Why me actually, my mom said that I was only in charge for sweeping and mopping the floors (although I did not really does all the job sometimes, actually not really often I do the housework anymore...) and now she is jabbing all the hard edges at me. I hate this, what is my lil sis doing? What can't she just wash the dishes? What is the hell my lil bro doing? He is already 18, and yet my mom just can't entrust him with something as simple as the dishes? Why am I always the one in the family who had to do all the stuffs that is simple? I don't think my mom notices this but actually I've spend A WHOLE LOT of my TIME devoted to her so called jobs. Whenever I have my free time, she will just ask me to do this and that, and she had me engaged in every Wednesday and Friday nights just to send and pick up my sis, tuition. And, she would ask me to do the cooking (seldom now but it still happens) and had me engaged in every evening for picking up my sis from school. And seeing that I have classes most of the time, I don't really have my own sweet time. And I still have to worry about assignments and works (ya right, lie to me, duh~) and then where is my time to hang out and play the games I had in my computer? (hahaha, actually this happens because I spend them on the time that I was supposed to do revision and assignments...)

I don't want to spend my time this way, although I still manage to spend some time on the stuffs I like when I am in between of doing "my mom's jobs" but then isn't that such a spoil sport? I mean whenever I am reaching the climax of the story I am reading or movie that I am watching, then its times up for me to pick up my sis. What the heck is that? I hate that kind of things. And yet I can't do anything about it because it is my mom's order. Maybe I should voice it out? But then considering my mom's autocratic position at home. I don't think it is possible to even tell her that I wanted to spare some of my own time and ask her to divide some jobs to my bro. Its not like my siblings are not doing housework, but they have the luxuries. Urgh! My sis can get 50 bucks every month just for ironing my dad's uniform. Whats that? I don't even get a penny for doing the moping and sweeping all these years. What I get in return is that all the screeching and yelling from my mom, all about those housework that I've forgotten to do. My bro don't actually do the same amount of digit that he is supposed to. But my mom never even nag at him. And what I get by doing less job, the same old thing, yelling and scoldings about being lazy.

This is just so unfair, and whenever I am sitting infront of the computer, my parents will have the mindset that I am playing games, and actually the monitor screens is absolutely, obviously showing that I AM DOING MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!! Because the computer is just right beside the television, I don't choose to do my studies and homeworks whenever they are watching tv or during daylights whenever they are around. This is because that will distract me, from getting my job done. Because of this, my mom assumed that I never do homeworks, assignments, study, revision. What the hell. I am going to bang my head to the wall one day because of this unfairness she is giving me.

Being elderly in the family doesn't mean that I have all the responsibility at home. Maybe before the others are mature enough to handle, but at the age of 14 and 18? Why can't they just get the chance to learn?



"Although LaoTze said that the world is a combination of both yin and yang, good and bad, but there is always one thing that is dominating on earth, UNFAIRNESS!!!!"