The end? Or maybe NOT, It is just about to start..

It is almost 4a.m. in the morning. I cant sleep and sat upon of my computer, trying to think of something to write. Well, everyone seems to be very happy about this sem break, or shall I say the end of our foundation year? For me, it is just another starting, " is this the end?" " no, it is just about to start!" "hurry up and get ready, you're gonna get lost if you don't pick up the pace!". Yes, everything is just about to start.

It is already 4a.m. and I am still wrtting this blog. The sun is going to have it's power shining to everyone and everywhere it can get. The power of never endings. Everyday although its same; dawn, dusk, sun sets, sun rises everyday the same routine but it brings different occasions, different meaning to be searched with our souls, different experiences to be experienced by us. "Its not the end yet!" "Yes. I can still go on." This is what I will be telling myself starting from now. We must not lose faith and hopes so that we can proceed to the next level.

The end of my foundation year means the starting of my degree (although I still doubt that I can proceed to degree), start with meeting new people around me, not forgetting those wonderful friends back then. It is not the end of friendship, once a friend forver will be friend. A good starting means more goodies will come on 1 by 1 following each other. So prepare well for the up comming challenge...

But everything has its limit. Go over that and it will turn upside down. The rules of "yin & yang", showing us that we must'nt be too harsh on everything. Do not push yourself over the limits or you will just breakdown at that very point. Balance, yes thats the word for it. Keep track of the balance of physical and metal health so to improve ourselves...

Today is already 3rd of May. Has everyone packed and moved to new hostel? Or everyone has been packing home? Im wondering cause of the silenced living room the whole day yesterday and the day before. No one even mind calling(not you KY..lol..), I think they are busy packing and getting ready to go home.

There is always an ackward feel in holiday, maybe it is the sudden changes of daily routine that makes me feel uneasy, I cant fall asleep. I think I miss everything and everyone. Losing tracks of them, nothing to do but to just sit infront of the computer and good for nothing. Maybe it is time that I try to figure out what I really wanted. A blurr scenery of future up ahead awaits me to discover.

Can't think properly right now. I think I've lost track of myself at the moment cause it is 4.25a.m. in the morning. In an hour time my dad and my siblings are about to wake up and get ready to go to school. I sure miss everyone there, my old schoolmates that are studying form 6 now, my ex-teachers that are retired and/or still teaching in my ex-school. Well, no matter how I miss everything, or how I wanted to have the time return back to all those memorable times, I still need to go on. Not looking back but to look foward is the only way of life. Yeah, I understand it very well.

My back is aching, I think it is the warning my brain gives me that I had spent too much time sitting here. Well, got to go too cause I think I'm just merely crapping....

"Humans usually wont trust the truth if they don't see it with their very own eyes. But the truth is not just what we see with eyes and heard with ears, it is what we should learn with our heart..."