Saturday, August 15, 2009
Me, My bed, and my iPhone
Then it begun, my whole day with myself on my bed with my iPhone to acompany. Its lucky that my mom decided to switch our Streamyx account into a better one with a wifi modem so that now I can online in my bedroom without much trouble. But then again, I feel like walking around but my body just feel so tired and wearoff. If I am not mistaken, this is the only time I've been so sick since my kindergarten era....
I am just so mad at myself and I decided to go clubbing later...Hahahhahahahhahahahah~!!!!!!! KILL ME WILL YA~~!!??
"Sometimes it cost us more to realize how important is someone to us. But I will never find out who that is..."
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Just blogging...
It doesn't matters, it doesnt seems like the haze is going to get any better, the weather is as schorching as ever and the visions are getting lousier not because my eye sight is getting worse but the air is covered by thick smokes...
PC Fair is going to end today, hoping that my mom will indeed agree to buy a new printer, better still, a new laptop for my brother so that we can stay even with our own computers to do our own assignments and games...I think I better get going to finish up the houseworks......
"While lifes changes, a lot stays back and more comes ahead."
Monday, July 13, 2009
What the fuck...
Sunday, June 7, 2009
One kind...
"Its not like I never tried, but I guess sometimes the truth is always being covered by the scene that the eyes captured..."
Friday, June 5, 2009
Something funny...
Woke up early in the morning, to say I woke up I would rather say I am being awakened by my brother. My mom had this "briliante" idea of her's sudenly saying that I can send my brother to the LRT station since I am going to school in the morning too. Hey, its 6.00a.m. in the morning and my class starts not earlier than 9.00a.m. today...
6.25a.m.
Now this might sounds crazy but actually right after I came back from the station (after dropping off my brother of course) I saw my neighbour running around on the streets. Yeah, no joke. They did run around the streets. Seemingly that they are chasing something that I can't see with my naked eye. And guess what, I ended up helping them chasing their pet rabbit...=.=
9.20a.m.
Now while saying that I had my rabbit chase in the morning (and it is very early in the morning for such excercise) is funny, this is even crazy. I am supposed to have replacement class today at 9.00a.m. but then my course rep came in at 9.15a.m. to tell us that our lecturer declare a day off today, too. And the reason is......
SHE HAD A STOMACHACHE......
Now thats crazy, and I felt everything that is happening up till now for today is funny and crazy. Maybe later I will have even funnier stuffs, oh well, who knows......
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Something...
I'd been having this strange feeling since the start of the new semester. I don't know what it is but I guess its just because those unusual stuffs that happened before this that is still singing their chorus in my mind whenever I am alone trying to figure out something. That doesn't bug me much though.
I guess sometimes I should've look at matters more specifically and clearly than I did before. Never judge things too fast. But I guess I wont be doing SOMETHING again again...
"Gathering thoughts is easier tell than having it done."
Monday, May 25, 2009
Unusual
Apparently she don't feel so happy so I just acompanied her to whatever she wants to do until she feels like going home. It rained for a fine Sunday, yet another not so good things that happened. Got home, and starting from late night, I've been doing something stupid. I wonder why I did that? I just can't help but felt instantly that it isn't appropriate that way.
Ish, I ought to be shot. I WILL NEVER DO THAT AGAIN! Where the hell did I get the thought of doing so? Why am I doing it? I knew it will end up that way. Done, settled. This is the second and the last time I will do it. No more.
Let it be then, my future will be as dark as it shall be from the day I was born in to this not so bright world.
I guess my faith last here and forver burried within my mind.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Outings
Nice view isn't it?
Yong and me, nice try lene...
To keep things short, I would say despite all the frustrations I have from my mom during the holidays, these two days would be the only best day I had in this holiday up till now. Ofcourse not only in Sg. Gabai but all the outings after it such as movies in Mid Valley Megamall, GreenBox midnight shouting, dinner at Restaurant Lau Heong (not bad, recomended). Been having fun for only two days, its so sad that my friend is going back to Kuantan. And to end this, thanks to everyone for their support : lene, Ken, Yong, Feng, and Wen! Thanks everyone for the wonderful trip! P/S: Anyone interested to go for this place? lol...I doubt anyone read...hahaha
"Being able to enjoy life is the most happy things that will befall on you whenever you let yourself to it."
My life dedicated to my siblings as driver! AGAIN!!!
For the very first time I really really really really really felt that I am born to this family because my mom planned to have me do all the stuffs, especially being the ´HONOURABLE´ driver of my lil sister. While I am being the driver, I expect that I should atleast have some privacy or maybe my own free time but apparently, no one respected me. They don´t even bother to ask me whether I am free to drive them to any places. I mean they should atleast TRY TO ASK ME whether I am free on that time or not, so that I can arrange my time to drive them anywhere.
Yeah, on my mom´s perspective, it is my duty to pickup and send my sister and brother no matter what I have in planning or planned to do later on that day. I´ve spend most of my holiday being all-time ready to pick up my sister and send my sister to tuition, school, friend´s house. Uh! I hate this thing. Why can´t they atleast respect me? Can't they see that I have my own life to live too? I just somehow feeling like ditching my car so that I do not need to drive them anymore. And whats with that attitude my mom had with me after that arguement about sending my sister to tuition? And it is not even an arguement, I am just sounding out my thoughts and my mom got raged just by litsening to :"It doesn't matter what happened anymore because the plan got changed in the end and thats it." The hell she get raged and straight away urge me back into my room and she drive my sis to school. Ever after that she didn't even let me have a nice talk to her, whenever I called and say :"hey mom," and she will give me that WHAT THE HELL IT IS YOU attitude and even accusing me bout not talking to her in a all so respective tone!!! She didn't try to respect me, how am I supposed to talk to her in a very nice tone when she don't even let me have a nice feeling talking to her. I just so hate her attitude sometimes...though anyhow she is still my mom, I will still obey her and respect her. But I can't stand this anymore, again this situation goes on and I will burst out by yelling at her! And I am damn sure I will this time!
"Don't expect anyone to oblige when you don't even let them have the chance!"
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Fair? Fed up with it
Why me actually, my mom said that I was only in charge for sweeping and mopping the floors (although I did not really does all the job sometimes, actually not really often I do the housework anymore...) and now she is jabbing all the hard edges at me. I hate this, what is my lil sis doing? What can't she just wash the dishes? What is the hell my lil bro doing? He is already 18, and yet my mom just can't entrust him with something as simple as the dishes? Why am I always the one in the family who had to do all the stuffs that is simple? I don't think my mom notices this but actually I've spend A WHOLE LOT of my TIME devoted to her so called jobs. Whenever I have my free time, she will just ask me to do this and that, and she had me engaged in every Wednesday and Friday nights just to send and pick up my sis, tuition. And, she would ask me to do the cooking (seldom now but it still happens) and had me engaged in every evening for picking up my sis from school. And seeing that I have classes most of the time, I don't really have my own sweet time. And I still have to worry about assignments and works (ya right, lie to me, duh~) and then where is my time to hang out and play the games I had in my computer? (hahaha, actually this happens because I spend them on the time that I was supposed to do revision and assignments...)
I don't want to spend my time this way, although I still manage to spend some time on the stuffs I like when I am in between of doing "my mom's jobs" but then isn't that such a spoil sport? I mean whenever I am reaching the climax of the story I am reading or movie that I am watching, then its times up for me to pick up my sis. What the heck is that? I hate that kind of things. And yet I can't do anything about it because it is my mom's order. Maybe I should voice it out? But then considering my mom's autocratic position at home. I don't think it is possible to even tell her that I wanted to spare some of my own time and ask her to divide some jobs to my bro. Its not like my siblings are not doing housework, but they have the luxuries. Urgh! My sis can get 50 bucks every month just for ironing my dad's uniform. Whats that? I don't even get a penny for doing the moping and sweeping all these years. What I get in return is that all the screeching and yelling from my mom, all about those housework that I've forgotten to do. My bro don't actually do the same amount of digit that he is supposed to. But my mom never even nag at him. And what I get by doing less job, the same old thing, yelling and scoldings about being lazy.
This is just so unfair, and whenever I am sitting infront of the computer, my parents will have the mindset that I am playing games, and actually the monitor screens is absolutely, obviously showing that I AM DOING MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!! Because the computer is just right beside the television, I don't choose to do my studies and homeworks whenever they are watching tv or during daylights whenever they are around. This is because that will distract me, from getting my job done. Because of this, my mom assumed that I never do homeworks, assignments, study, revision. What the hell. I am going to bang my head to the wall one day because of this unfairness she is giving me.
Being elderly in the family doesn't mean that I have all the responsibility at home. Maybe before the others are mature enough to handle, but at the age of 14 and 18? Why can't they just get the chance to learn?
"Although LaoTze said that the world is a combination of both yin and yang, good and bad, but there is always one thing that is dominating on earth, UNFAIRNESS!!!!"
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Holiday?
Holiday in May is always not the best that I have, and it oftens bugs me because everyone seems to be going for vacations up the hills, beach, overseas, city tour, and et cetera. While they are having fun of their life time, I will stay home baby sitting my sister, send her to school, pick her up, buy her lunch, prepare dinner...I ought to be shot!
Holiday always pair with part time jobs, earning money, self improvements yada yada yada. But the awkward situation is that I don't feel like working but I have to work so that I will get paid. The problem is that everyone is having fun while I work and when I want to hang out with friends, they are working/studying/not feeling to go out the second time. URGH!!!!! I hate it...
Well I guess I will just have to accept the fact that I am just not that lucky guy who was born in a wealthy family and well educated by parents to be a disciplined and yet out going person that can play full time in his life. Some responsibility had to be done because it came together with you when the day you were born.......
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Lucky~ Merely...
And the thing that hit me today, is that....
I GOT AN IPHONE NOW!!! Without the charger...
But I still got an iPhone!!!!!!
Why? Because a Russian customer of my dad left his precious phone in my dad's limo...how sad for him, how pathetic for me...I guess I don't mind a visit to IMAC or APPLE to get the accessories though...hahaha...Till then, toodles~~
"Sometimes you just wouldn't know what hit you, might be a shit from sky, or just an iPhone in your car...."
Sunday, April 19, 2009
boreeeeedddddd
My mind is just wandering around in my workplace a.k.a ecoparadise....
I am bored till death and yet I can't study here because it is impossible to concentrate....
I hoped that I can have my dinner now...
Nothing to do....
Nothing to do.....
Nothing to do.....
I missed my PlayStation.....
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Secrets that shouldn't be kept
Someone, had a reason. The reason is that the truth is kept secret because once it is revealed, everyone who knows the truth (especially me) will lose a friend. Hey, whats the big deal there? I know that non that I cared, will hurt me as being told. So, if the truth is so devastating, then that 'friend' might as well just be ignored. Why, someone that will hurt you badly, be a friend of you? If they are not going to treat you as a friend would be, then THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND aren't they?
So, thats the thing that bugs me here. Particular someone, tries to keep the truth (which is related to me, somehow) from me, and gives me the reason that I WOULD BE VERY SAD, HURT, AND LOSE A FRIEND. I say, whats the big deal? BECAUSE EVERYONE THAT I CARED ABOUT, WOULD NOT HURT ME, AND THOSE WHO WILL HURT ME, ARE NOT MY FRIENDS. Thats what I am saying, and I still can't figure it out whats the matter of telling me? I really hate the feeling of not knowing something, that is related to me, and saddening.
And, I don't really hope the beholder to be the tragic hero like the movies or the dramas. WE ARE HERE IN A REALITY THAT EVERYONE NEEDS EACH OTHER SO TO LIVE A BETTER LIFE. I dont understands the reason, or the value there, keeping the truth from others and be sad for your own. Thats not helping others, that is just particularly pushing others to dangers. Why choose to let the bad ones go free, and sacrifice those who are good? Why choose not to tell truth to me, if it is related to me? THIS MEANS THAT I WOULD BE MORE SAD WHEN I REALLY KNOW THE TRUTH WHICH I OUGHT TO KNOW EARLIER! Then what happens when I knew it? Blame the beholder? The the beholder would lose another friend because of a bad choice. I don't hold any grudge or anger towards the beholder. I AM JUST SAD BECAUSE YOU NEVER TELL ME THE TRUTH! AND YOU CHOOSED NEVER, EVER, TO TELL ME!!! AND WANTS ME TO FIND IT OUT SOMEDAY!! THAT WOULD BE TOOOOO LATE!!!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday night, Monday morning
Went to watch 12 Rounds by John Cena with Kel and Jac (duh~ I've seemingly been going out alot lately...I guess I have to get some rest...or I am just going to fall..*fainting). The movie was very nice I would say, another must watch it is!!
Ok, I wont be discussing and commenting on this movie because I dont wanna be the spoiler for it. If you wanna know more, just go watch it in the cinema...LoL!
Back to where I was, Yong mentioned about having supper at his place because he brought back ALOT of food from his house back in Kajang. So after movie. me and Jac decided to go help ourselves at his little apartment at Genting Court. We had a long walk to his unit, and back to my car as well when we were leaving...
Something in me just tells me that today wasn't a fine day. Something is just not right. But I just cant tell what it is...I think I am going to find out sometimes later, or so...If not, I guess I will definately bothered by this uneasy feel...gah~! Screw it...
" Sometimes, it is just up to us to choose what it is like to be ourselves, and to live on with or without getting hurt by someone or something that happened."
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Being tagged by Casely...
2.My Birthday : 22nd July
3.Who tagged you : Casely
4.Name 5 best friends : Dayuan, KenGuan, Kelvin, Hansel, Michael
5.What do you wished for birthday : Don't know...
6.Happy things that happened recently : Going out alot?
7.Most stressed about recently : Assignments and Final Year Project
8.What is your dream about future : Everyone around is happy
9.Do you have someone you like : Perhaps...
10.Will visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : Ofcourse Pn. Tan will never be left out
11.Most happy to hang out with : Friends
12.If two of your friends were having conflicts : Mediator
13.Where is prefferably the place to go with your lover : Anywhere
14.What to do in Christmas : Stay home, perhaps...
15.Who do you wants to celebrate Christmas with : Don't know yet
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : Nope, only feel tired everytime
17.How many siblings you have : 1 brother, 1 sister
18.Favourite song(Female) : Nothing particular
9.Favourite song(Male) : Everything from JT!
20.Favourite Colour : Dark ones
21.Flush before using the toilets? : Duh~ public toilets maybe...
22.Love me not? : Sure
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : I am a straight guy!
24.What do you wants to shout out loudy : ARRRH!!!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : Duh~ Whats the matter with it?
26.Will you take of your undies in while in the WC : Depends on what I do there...
27.Whos the bastard : Right now, myself
28.Whats the current affection : Digimon? LOL!!!
29.Sleeps uglily : Am I supposed to know?
30.Whats the time now : 1919
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : Nah, I feel like biting her...
32.Weight : 100kg
33.Weather today : Rainy day
34.Are you pregnant : What the...
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : Investment, spend on friends and family
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : Clubbing? Going outstation together?
【People Tagged】
1-Kelvin
2-Jayren
3-Onn Sein
4-Ce-Yan
5-Elene
6-Michael
7-Da Yuan
8-Ken Guan
9-Javen
10-Ee Von
01-【Did no.4 know no.6?】:uhh...kinda...
02-【No.10 is a male or?】:Female
03-【 The hobby of no.8】:Hanging out with friends especially at CC
04-【Do no. 1 have any siblings】:As I know, got 1 sister...
05-【The surname of of no.7】:Tee
06-【Do no.10 have alot of friends?】: Sure, plenty
07-【Anyone tackling no.4?】: erm...I think so...
08-【If no.2 is being introduced?】:I dont really know what will happen then...haha
09-【The favourite colour of no.6】:I think might be white...or silvery grey
10-【Is no.3 and no.10 friends?】:Nah. they dont know each other...
11-【The birthday of no.8】:13th April (dang....tmr....)
12-【Where is no.5 studying currently?】:HELP College
13-【How do you know no.10?】: At work
14-【Whats the difference between the birthmonth of no.1 and you?】:5 months
15-【Ever hang out with no.9?】:Ofcourse!!
16-【Do you like to chat with no.2?】:Sure, I chat with anyone (as long as they are friendly)
17-【Like to be with no.3?】:I think she will be bullied by me...haha
18-【How do you think about no.7?】:Best friend ever, a very nice guy
19-【How do you think about no.9?】:One of the smartest I knew
20-【Do you love no.5?】:Yes as a friend, I really cared.
1.Who tagged you with this questionaire? : Casely Koh
2.How long you knew him/her : About to be 13 years
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Sorta
4.Your relationship with him/her : Foster siblings
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : Who knows, she will be crazy about anything...
6.What do you think about his/her personality? : 1000% NARCISSIST
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : If 10 is maximum, it will be 7... LOL!! (I am gonna get killed by this...)
*1st thing before sleep : Switch on the aircond...=.=
*1st thing after awaking from sleep : Toilet...
*Your idol : J.T
*Favourite season : Anything but summer...
*Worked part-time before? : Definately
*Times worked : Duh....more than once...
*Country that wanted to go most : Italy
*Personality hated : Back stabbers...
*Are you a cry baby? : nah...swt...
*You laughed alot? : Occasionally
*Do you like to go out alone? : KILL ME IF I DO....
*What time you wakeup if it was a holiday? : Not sure, as long as I wanted to...
*Today's weather(Sunny Rainy Cloudy): Rainy
*Choose between Friends and Lover : No lover here, so friends...
*Choose between Chances and Fates : Chances
*Are you narcissist? : No, I dont..
*Is this questionaire long? : Kinda...
*How to make yourself feel better everytime? : Sleep...
*Favourite food : dont know, for real...
*Do you like ice? : depends on the weather
*Are you full of happiness? : Maybe...
*Which are the friends that you cared the most? : Those which are close
*Whats the most important item in your bed room? : My books!!! And the bed lamp!!
*Most consistant dream at sleep : I dont remember my dreams...
*Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : Duh...
*Whats the meaning of life? : To learn and appreciates the value of oneself, and the one with us
*Do you know?(See if you can answer this!): Kill me...
*When do you hate me? : everytime...
*Like the day you were born or been into the society?,Like Taoism or Confusianism? : Its nothing to me...everything is the same...
*Favourite cake? : Marble cheese cake
*Can we stop this game now? : Please stop it...
*Do you like sardins? ^^ : NO!!
*Who knows you the best? : Don't know, my foster sis maybe...
*IQ higher or EQ? : EQ I guess...but both are average..
*Computer or Mobile Phone : PDA phone....
*Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep while playing...haha
*Friendster or Facebook? : Facebook
*Whats your wish right now? : Get over with this...
*Tired? : Duh~~
*Favourite drinks :H2O
*What do you think of the humanity and personality of the person who tagged you? : FFK me...T.T
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Routines
The second movie that we watched is the FAST AND FURIOUS 4!!! YES!!! I LOVE IT!!!! Dont know how to give comment on this cause it was really out of my range of words, I cant literally decribe this movie anymore......
The most exciting movie this month, The Fast And The Furious 4 (Pantas and Ganas 4) swt.
Well, so that ends everything for this time. Toodles~~
"If you lost, or losing something, it is not a sin. Maybe by circumstances we are not being our own. But, losing your very own value will be the largest sin against everything. Treasure your value so as your friends treasures you."
Monday, April 6, 2009
Genting? Nah...
Tada~ The view from the so called "Small Genting" which is one of the three famous hills around Cheras area. (And we really was looking for Look Out Point, trust me...)
It is not a bad idea to have an outing as such although we might end up again, lost....
THE NEXT PLACE TO CONQUER IS AHEAD!!!!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Randomness
Well...today was just as bored as ever (same goes to everytime while working in ECO...that place really drives me crazy sometimes...especially eevon and winnie are not around...) since there was no entry (means customer flow was almost nil), I decided to mingle with the computer (*haha scratching my head) and played facebook for the whole working session...
It turns out that in the end...Chie was angry with me cause of not chatting with her the way I am chatting with everyone...IN FACEBOOK...I was feeling kinda =.= (speechless)....and time passes really fast (I should really play with my facebook everytime I work...)
Was home and guess what...I brought back the same boredom with me...haha...I was thinking of killing myself at the mo...brb...*banging head onto the computer desk
no philo entry for this time because was busy bangging my head onto the desk at the mo....